Miracles happen

2012-01-20T00:37:00.001-08:00

I think my relationship between My parents and I are getting distant. It's like I don't understand them any more. And I don't think they even wanna understand me. It's like when you were young, you probably stick to mom's apron string. But as you get older, this kind of free and easy relationship isn't easy to maintain. I dont understand why there are articles about parents treating their children as friends. Is it even possible? Parents are at the end of the day still parents. How can we treat them as a mate and just pour every darn thing to them? Can they even shoulder that? If I tell them I feel stressed about work and uneasy about my future, will they be able to stand in my shoes to think?
Nowadays, I realise my father and 8 can no longer talk longer than a sentence a day. It's like my mum is a messenger or something, Sometimes it's a bit hurtful that he had to tell my mum about stuff he is unhappy with me. It's like why cant he tell me straight in my face so it won't hurt so badly? Sometimes I really envy my friend Sylvia. It's like she's the only child so she get all the love. And even though both her parents are working, I can see that they are rather bonded. Nowadays, I'm really trying hard to get a job so as to prevent potential conflicts. My mum is starting to spill hurtful remarks at me so much that I really wanna hide. In somewhere no one can find me.
I know that they sort of feel ashamed of me as I don't have the brains and stuff. To them, I'm irresponsible, lazy, rude and petulant. I am just speechless. I have to depend on myself. Even if people look down on me, I cannot give up on myself.
As the saying goes, if you fail to plan, you will plan to fail. So I must start planning my life and live my own life that I want.

2012-01-20T00:24:00.001-08:00

Omg why is the job company so slow in notifying me my job. The more my mum nags, the more times I call them. Wah I bet I sound desperate. Today mum just woke me up and say that I'm like a lazy bum and I should just get any job. Any job? Who was the one who complain about the low pay and distance etc. ?
Can't I find something I'm interested in? I already gave up journalism. Can't grant me my own choice of part time job? But really, the job agency is taking ages to get back to me. Slow slow slow! How long must I wait! I can't last longer at home! I'm suffocating soon.

2012-01-16T06:55:00.001-08:00

New Year Resolutions 2012

1. Find my interest and follow my heart in choosing the correct education pathway.

2. Be a stronger person (stop being too emotional)

3. Be a better daughter.

4. Be more optimistic and take things by my stride

5. Work hard and try to earn some money

6. Be a useful person to not let people belittle me.

7. Get a driving license and piano certificate.

2012-01-16T06:51:00.001-08:00

Omg didn't I vowed to try not to quarrel with mum? Now it's my mum and dad who are unhappy with me. Great. She don't wanna talk to me cause she said that I don't wanna listen to her. Hello, has she even tried to sit down and have a comfortable and frank talk with me and try to accept what I said? We might just end up in quarrels. I think I just need someone to listen to me and hear me pour out my troubles and dissatisfaction. I might need a psychiatrist if this goes on. Im feeling a heartbreak again. God, why am I do uselessly emotional again?
Ps. I'm glad that she appreciated how I did the chores these days. (:

2012-01-16T06:45:00.001-08:00

Today I went for etrial with Sylvia. We had lunch at Tampines. Then, we went for trials at Ubi. I redid the trials many times. Got 100% a few times. Hope I can pass BTT. I wanna feel more confident by accomplishing more stuff. (:

Seeing my friends getting on with their lives, I can't help but to feel green with envy. Their stable path of studies and steady career route. At least they are doing things step by step. Me? I'm just an O level student who can't be compared to them. Can I even get into private university? Why is my life so unpredictable? I really don't wanna choose a path full of uncertainties like my JC life. I can't see my future any nearing. It just seems far, and impossible. I hate to let down my parents and I really feel ashamed. I can't even see eye to eye to them with confidence. I bet they are embarrassed and ashamed to have me as their daughter. Nothing talented to show off at all. No appearance, no intelligence, no character. Invisible will suit me best. Whenever I see them, I just think about how sad they will be with their high expectations. Once upon a time, I hated how my mum compared academic results with the other kids. I strived so hard to prove people wrong. And after alevels, I am back to square one. Life is just so unpredictable.

2011-12-28T03:23:00.000-08:00

Hmm... these few days I've been rotting at home and watching youtube. Haha. Just watched you're beautiful, a korean drama. Its a romantic comedy. Very sweet and heart fluttering! Haha. Not bad at all. So I'm trying to buck up in my piano since I have procrastinated for the sake of academics. I really hoped to pass my driving test next year too! It will make me feel more reassuring.

2011-12-25T01:31:00.001-08:00

So yesterday went to Darren's house for Xmas party. Had many good food! Like beef, bee hoon, nugget, sotong, and more. Yummy! Played Life!, YouTube, snap and more. Haha like a tradition. Went home at 2am.

2011-12-23T20:49:00.001-08:00

Yesterday was like something to look forward to. Haha anything to get out of home. Don't understand why some people can just stay at home and rot for so long. I mean, isn't it unhealthy? That's why I must definitely get a job. Anything is better than being nagged at home. Shouldn't nagging diminish over the years? Omg it just get worse. But I guess nagging helps to destress. I wanna do things more meaningful than housechores and rotting at home.

So went genting for 3 days this week. So cold! But we didn't go to the themepark and shop at all. Was like rotting there too! Haha but thank god daddy let us go for karaoke! How sweet even though it was a hefty sum! (: I just love my parents so much when they are overseas. (: they treat me so well that i feel touched to tears. (: Maybe because without stress or chores, they don't scold and nag that much than at home. So I really dread going home to face reality and harsh truth. Oh well.

So yesterday I did not hesitate to attend gff meeting. I asked Sylvia if she wanna have lunch together so I can get out earlier. Haha must go out, if not I will rot. So she agreed immediately(: we had lunch at mcdonalds at Whitesands. Chatted and then we went to Marina Square. As always, Sylvia went to catch toys at the arcade area. Haha. Then, we went to Vivo city to meet the rest of the girls. (: met huiyin at Pizzahut. Unfortunately we had to queue and wait. Then, we went to exchange gifts and played games. So sweet of Sylvia and huiyin to give other gifts! (: Then we went to the skypark to take photos! (:

2011-12-18T06:36:00.001-08:00

Today was a blast! Woke up at 10am and get dressed up by 11am. Dad brought 3 of us to Whitesands. We went to the supermarket to buy some chocolates for Jingmin Jie. (: Went to take the MRT to Cityhall. Was a little paranoid as smrt already had several breakdowns in a week and it was only opened at 11am after repair. Phew, thank god we did not need to wait long. However, the mrt was moving a little slower than usual if I'm not wrong.

After that, we arrived at cityhall and met jingmin jie. Vanessa and Madeline had arrived earlier because their parents brought them there. We went to Sushi Express to have lunch. $1.50 per plate! Jingmin Jie treated us(: Had sumptuous meal! Then, we went to orchard by mrt. Went to Orchard Cineplex to sing Kbox. We sang from 2pm to 6pm! Had a whale of a time! We then went to plaza Singapore to see Jie Stephanie perform! Sesame street! Haha cute! Then we had a simple meal at foodcourt. We shopped around and went home! (:

2011-12-14T00:20:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I quarreled with my mum. well i think it may not sound surprising but seriously i did try to not quarrel with her nowadays. If not you will find me quarreling with her and my sister like everyday especially during the holidays. Well, when there is more contact and exposure, there bound to be tensions and conflicts.I don't know why but the recent posts are like my complaints and me yanking away blah blah... Thank god not a lot of people knows this blog exists and therefore I can just vent whatever here yadada. Ok so every time I quarrel, my heart always ache after that or I will just feel a bit regretful saying some words. Well, I guess I just have my petulant temper to blame. But didn't people say that after each quarrel, relationships will be strengthen? haha i guess every situation varies accordingly. Actually quarrels only help to thrash things out and set things straight effectively only if the other party is reasonable and rationale. And then maybe the chances of bickering again will diminish. Aha, that will not be my mum i guess. I told her i forgot to throw the laundry and then she started yanking about what if she forget to cook and stuff. Irrelevant stuff tend to be poured out when the other party is just unreasonable and not sober.Well, another piece of not unexpected news is that my parents quarreled. Like wow, what a novel thing my foot. I mean like can we have more mature adults and stop doing things so childish? They actually separated laundry and throw stuff. Isn't it just childish and foolish? I mean what are they even thinking? And they can say that we will not understand about adult affairs. Come on, am I like a toddler? Teacher Monica is right, when a couple quarrel, its either about family or money. Haha my parents can even bicker about stuff beyond these. Seriously, where on earth do you find such parents. One of a kind really. I just hope they get over it and done with and let us enjoy our peaceful holiday and that's it. I mean, why did they pick now to quarrel? Get a life.

2011-12-10T09:36:00.001-08:00

Well done, my sister just rebutted me as soon as I told her not to be so selfish. That's the worse Part about being a sister. Mum actually told me to try to discipline them and I get shit. Seriously, my sister's words are just so hurting and insensitive. What a temper she has got there. This is why I don't feel so close to her, I always thought it's the age gap issue but I think I can't even speak to her properly. It's like I'm always trying to start a conversation with her nicely and she must always agitate or annoy me. Frankly, nobody can say words which hurt like hers. It's like im telling her not to be too selfish ans she started raking about me not doing the chores. I didn't do because of my alevels ok. Seriously I didn't even think that they will mind since I thought they know my predicament. Besides, I noted all these and did initiate to help. My second sister didn't even complain and she wants to? And for your information, it's not that her temper is getting over since we never quarrel these few years, it's because I'm trying to tolerate. I know that you are spoilt and since you are smallest, we always give in to you. But please don't push it. I always try to keep a distance when I feel that some issues may end up into conflicts. If only I know that you will say such disheartening words, I would jolly bell just be a mute. Sometimes, I really hate myself for being so emotional ans sensitive about everything. It's like I ponder over days and felt sad when my mum quarreled with me and say that I was dumb. This time someone said I was selfish. Great. Now I'm starting to believe in that. Ok whatever, I really think that I'm an extra burden to this world. Not productive and character is failing... What's the point of working so hard? Results don't pay anyway? A person once said, everyone is special. God created you the way you are. Hais, I really can't think that way. I'm so depressed, stupidly in an abyss of misery. Reading back my post, I feel like I was having a nervous breakdown when I'm writing that.hmm.. Actually I just wanna cure this heartache. It's not diminishing... I was angry but the knot of anger harden onto sadness and then disappointment... Last stage:depression

I don't understand how she can be so innocent and obedient in front of my father and then talk behind people's back. Is like why can't she get real and not be two-faced? Seriously, sometimes if a person tell you something bad straight in front of my face, its still so much better than talking behind my back and backstabbing me again and again. Maybe its the age gap that hinders us from communicating well but for now, I guess its a matter of discipline.

2011-10-24T05:59:00.000-07:00

I really miss my sister. Even though I just went to visit her in the hospital, it really hurts to see her lying on the bed, so weak and feeble. I really can't imagine how immense the pain is. She is still so brave, managing a smile as we went to see her. My heart really really ache to see my little sister suffering. It must really be unbearable and tormentful. She's a strong girl, god please give her courage to carry on. I hope to see her standing and walking again. I promised her to play badminton with her after my alevels. I really wish her the best of health. And I wish her a speedy recovery. I really hope I can share her pain.): I wanna joke with her, play with her again.

2011-10-08T03:05:00.000-07:00

RIP to Steve Jobs, a prominent figure in the world of sicence and technology. His innovations have taught us to dream big and think out of the box. His achievements are marvellous. Who would have thought about having a pocket-size iphone? Apple is such an accomplished company. All around us, we are surrounded by products of Science to quench our insatiable thirst. The world just evolves with Science. I hope I can be someone notable like him.

2011-09-21T02:05:00.000-07:00

Don't know why , but was I too harsh on the previous post? Ok feeling better today. Today I suddenly come across this quote,
" I didn't know it's was impossible, so it is possible".
This is rather insightful and interesting yet. Whoever come up with this is kinda wise.
"Life isn't easy, but as long as you persevere, you will get to see the wonderful things in life".
Yeah, so I really hope it's true. Actually i gotta say there are fun things in life. But do we get to enjoy them? Haha. That is the big hurdle. Yesterday night as I slept, I thought about my life. Thought about what if I fail in alevels. How would I feel? How would people see me? I was wondering why my pride is so big. So what if I'm ordinary and not smart? Am I like a useful person? But seriously, there's no point pondering over these stuff. I flipped through my photo album today, I suddenly feel like I have received so much love and goodness of life. And I should be grateful. And thankful for what I have. I should just stop yanking away about my life. After all, life is full of ups an downs.

2011-09-19T21:48:00.000-07:00

Ok so I went for chalet and universal studio. The chalets was so much nicer than I thought actually, the magnificent and scenic location, hearing the tidal waves making the calm, soothing sound. Walking on the sand along the coast. It felt like some private chalet. Only a few residents, haha. Well, it's was kinda like a balm to my nerves again. You know after all the studying, this is like a break, another motivation to carry on with life. Chatted with cousins and played games, even though some were kind of silly. Haha, well relishing childhood I guess? This should be life. Haha my cousin and I were like complaining about JC again. You know what? This isn't really fair. In primary schools and secondary schools, they thought us facts and little application techniques and now in JC, they expect you to be like superb at it. What is this? I mean like I can really last min do work for psle and olevel, but Alevel? Haha it used to be like how good you can memorize kind of thing but now? Even if you master that, it doesn't really mean you will succeed. And it's just annoying that exams get more competitive as more talented people are born. Agh! Sucks to be me! Ok then, we gossiped a lot, really a lot. Chatted like we have never done that before. barbecue and ate marshmallow an chocolate fondue. (:

Went to universal studio. It was well, fun. But small compared to Japan's. Well, Singapore has limited land. But it would be better if the weather is not so hot. Ok but we did took several repeated rides in evening as there are lesser people. Haha.

My sister has decided to undergo operation. I hope she's good and optimistic! Because no matter wha happens, I will be there for her. In fact, all of us will! (: God, please give my sister courage to carry on(: even though I feel kind of sad and tingling pain in my heart, I really hope she will be happy.

Sorry but I have to vent this frustration somewhere or another. I really hate my
Aunt. Why did she have to put her hands imto our family matters? Had she not introduce and start the qigong thingy, my sister may not need to suffer. And out of all, she had to recommend this weird 'master' to my mum. Weird, hmm or should is say freaking mad and ill-mannered. One look and I can judge that his character is damn freaking euww! He's like totally criticizing western doctors. I understand that they are from same profession field but different beliefs but does he has to insult others? Such an ass! Disrespectful and uncouth. One day I might just sue him in his pants. In his face! Seriously why does such people exist, the first time he open his mouth, nothing good come out. What kind of doctor say to patients' parents that you can just leave and let you child be disable for life? What kind of person will react so strongly even if customer sort of doubt him? How dare he charged more money because of that? WHO does he think he is? The world will stop revolving without him? Please go to hell. I can't believe patients still have to endure his stupid temper, I hope the outlet just tear down, really. Stop harming innocent people and act like you are so big. Infect you are not even a piece of smudge/dirt. And my mum can actually believe such people. Even when he's dirt from head to toe. What's wrong with weaing braces? Lots of people do that too. Sure it's gonna be tiring but this is the price to pay for a better future isn't it? How much money is donated to him just for few minutes of session? Isn't it worse to travel to and fro to Chinatown? Seriously, what's wrong with people. He's like cursing my health even from the beginning. He's not even putting in nicely, he's like totally shooting off and trying to scare my mum. I can't believe my mum fell for it. It's all my aunt fault. Why must she poke her nose into this matters? Just because of this, my parents quarrel several times. Seriously, if you like qigong so much. Why don't you just go and keep my family out of this? Not everyone is some fervent believer of chinese medicine. Stop influencing my mom. Seriously, whenever I see you at grandma's house, you have no idea how much I want to yell and scream at you. Whenever I see you, I thought of how many times my family break apart because of you. Nosyparker. Stop calling and act concerned because what done cannot be undone. The harm is already Inflicted. No matter what you do, it is useless. So please just let my family live in peace, really.

2011-08-08T20:40:00.000-07:00

I hate it. I hate it when my mum thinks that I'm gonna be studying all the way when I did not go my grandma's house. I hate it when my dad smiles when I am studying. I seriously from the bottom of.my heart feel more disturbed. I feel so fake and shallow. When they do all those stuff, they just make me feel like I have to succeed and not fail them. I cannot do it. Miracles do not happen so often. Why can't they just give it up and get real? What's the point of being hardworking? I really don't believe in you reap what you sow now. It just doesn't work for me. I hate it. I hate the way I live now. I hate the choice I made 2 years ago. I hate my guts for not just following my wish to go to poly. I hate how confident I was before. I hate the uneasiness on my heart now as I think about the future. I hate the way my maternal relatives look at me when I need to study. I just feel so uneasy and weird. I don't wanna people to look down on me but neither do I want people to overestimate me and think that I am the cream of the crop cause truth is, I'm not as smart as my sister, nor am I good-looking as my other sister. What I got in olevels is luck, bliss but unfortunately I thought I was good enough. How silly seriously. Such a fool I was and still am.

2011-07-17T08:02:00.000-07:00

Today is a beautiful day. Dad told me to take a break and and went JB! I like going to JB! I feel more comfortable shopping there! I dot know why but ya... Went to eat bak kut teh in the sweltering afternoon. You can imagine how steaming hot we were. Went to KSL today, there were loads of people. Lots of groups of youngsters hanging out. Went karaoke! Woohoo! Got a bigger room but it's slightly expensive than red box. Pricing is according to room, not per head. Then, we went to eat Japanese food! Yummy! My dad is so nice! But all the more, I should do well and not give up in JC, isn't it? Hais. That's the problem. The better your parents treat you, the guiltier you get. Mum even bought yakult for me. Dad recently bought my favourite cream puff and durians! Aww! Ok I think I will try, but there is no guarantee how my studies will turn out to be. Next stop, universal studios with paternal family in September and chalet in august! So exciting!

2011-07-12T04:31:00.000-07:00

I am so speechless. I worked hard but I still failed my subjects. Maybe I didn't work harder? Seriously this is a time where hope is really low and the journey seems unsure. This is just a tough journey, I guess I'm not strong enough to endure all this or make it through. JC is one MAJOR MISTAKE in my life. The decision is so WRONG. My life is so twisted and there goes my beautiful future. My future is so screwed to the max. I can only regret and be speechless. It's hard to be resilient and I was never so strong to brave this. Never. I thought I can handle this but it isn't easy. Is not like olevels, it is alevels. I foresee myself next year suffering like hell. Lfe is not good. It sucks.

2011-07-09T12:37:00.000-07:00

I really don't know how to find a way to heal my heart and mindset. I am super pessimistic but then again there isn't any bright side. I don't think I can live up to people's expectations. I hate it when people say you are so good in olevel, you will do well in jc and get into university. My secondary friends all think that I'm smart so naturally I can fare in jc. Thing is, it is not smartness, it is just pure luck. And jc is an unfortunate and regretful choice. Whenever I whine that I cannot make it in jc, my relatives just smile and say, it's okay you will do fine. They think what I say is a joke. They have no idea how I had it tough. Sometimes, all these add up to give me pressure and I feel like I'm like livIng for others' expectations. Had it occur to them that I'm serious and I can't do it? My cousin today told me that if we really can't make it, we can work part-time and study. But this ain't really the life I want. But that's probably the best way to get into university. Im trying to be calm now and not be so emotional. I don't usually cry, but I am not very resilient. In face of failures, I just break down. Failures are inevitably part of life. But I just cannot take it with stride. It's just difficult. Also, my parents may say that it's okay if I didn't make it. Honestly, even though I feel their support, it doesn't make me feel any better. I know that they do want me to be in university and be someone they are proud of. Sometimes, I feel the pressure from my maternal relatives, they made it sound like jc is easy. Even mum listens to aunt and finally persuaded me into getting to JC to get to university. At times, I would wonder what will happen if I insisted my own way. I didn't really wanna get into private university because im like spending off my parents hard-earned money. Isn't it kind of unfilial? I shudder at the thought of getting into polytechnic next year together with my cousin who is taking olevel this year. I shudder at the thought of wasting my 2 years and not getting any nearer to the working society and earn some money. I wanna give my family a good life, a comfortable life. You know what? I always believed that usually one will be either capable or good-looking or both. But I'm neither. So I'm like toiling day and night, trying not to give in to my fate.

Today, I went to my grandma's house. It does take a load off my mind because unless I am preoccupied, then can I stop worrying so much. Today, my dad was yelling and ranting at me and Sarah cause we were not ready when he was. Frankly I wasn't very bothered but he just keep hurrying us. Well. We ssinf really know what time we were going and Tiffany wasn't back so we didn't expect us to set off so early. Don't know why, but when I see my parents, I only think of what a failure I am. So it doesn't make me feel any better.

2011-07-08T06:22:00.000-07:00

Honestly, I am already like giving in to fate. The thing is, I did study but why did I still fare so badly? Sometimes, I really think its so unfair. Some people work so hard to get nothing but some don't even have to do anything to succeed. I'm really tired, this long strenous journey. I really regretted going JC, why did I change my original choice- polytechnic? Maybe I should stop thinking that it waas my parents who forced me, after all I can insist and stick to my initial decision to go to polytechinc. Hmmm... If i was in poly, I will defnitely aim to be the top few and get a scholarship and get into a private unieversty. At times, I would dine out with my friends and chat about our hectic lives. But...isn't it a bit pathetic to think this way? Thing is, what has been done cannot be undone. Reality is just so harsh.

2011-07-06T22:40:00.000-07:00

ok today marks the end of my mid years. Supposedly, I should feel more confident as I had 4 weeks of preparations and alevels is nearing. But why is it that i just feel nerve-wrecking all over? Even GP this time was tough. Sometimes I really hope, they will tell me that the papers are difficult and are not alevel standard.

2011-06-20T09:13:00.000-07:00

My weekend was splendid! Firstly, my parents actually made up before we set off to Marina Bay Sands which was awesome because I cannot imagine how awkward it would be if they are haveing a cold war. Was a great way to start saturday, Packed our bags like in the last minute, impromptu again. Well, I was really excited since my parents reconciled. Haha. We reached there in the afternoon and had our lunch at MArina Bay shopping centre. My mum says its a high class foodcourt, haha. It just look the same to me anyway. The shopping mall is just classy and grand. I think the only shop we went to was Cold Storage Specialty. Haha! What's there to buy there there? Then, we went to our rooms, it was amazing! I love that place! The toilet is so grand and spacious that I wish it was mine. Haha! Of course, we went to the skygarden that is on the 57th floor of the building. The scenery was marvellous. I just have to say, Singapore is so beautiful! I have never thought that I woulld feel so proud! It's spectacular! I really felt like I'm on a vacation in a foreign country. Sinagpore is definietely comparable to other countries! My sisters and I went to swim. The weather was good enough for us to swim and it was not that hot. THank god! After the swim, we went to eat sushi we had bought earlier. After which, we went to see the fireworks. I think it's NDP rehearsal because sylvia said she was in a rehearsal on the floating platform. My sisters and I walked to Marina Square and had dinner and Pizzahut. My parents apparently were in the casino and told us to settle our dinner ourselves after giving us some cash.

The next day, my sisters and I walked to Marina Square and sang and had lunch at Kbox. Then, we proceeded to Bugis Street to shop. Bought a dress!(: Then, we were feeling a little hungry so we went on to eat laksa and drink smoothies at Rockery's.
And for dinner, my parents came to pick us up and we went to Central to partake our meals.

2011-05-20T05:15:00.000-07:00

I was just thinking about the future, the unpredictable future. It's just so hard to tell what will happen. My aspirations, my future, it just keeps changing and sometimes, everything is not what it seems. Ionce yearned to be a journalist, but really, so what? My english is terrible, used to thought that my essay was like at least average, but turns out when you are the cream of the crop, it doen't mean that you are at the top of the world. 一山还有一扇山高，强中自有强中手。When life gives you shit, you have no choice but to accept it and try to change it. Recently, I sort of discover the beauty of mathematics. Only in mathematics, then does everything makes sense. It's kind of weird right? Seriously, why am I so fickle-minded? Haha.

Anyway, today I was reading this news on the radicalchanges made to the cabinet. The new cabinet will be sworn in tomorrow so if there is a live broadcast, I will definitely catch it. Well, hope it turns out for the better!(:

Recently, the weather has been sweltering hot, I mean extremely hot. I can just see the heat waves as I peered out to the field from my school hall. Ths definitely shows hot warm the weather is nowadays.The PSI readings have been rather high, andf more haze. It would have been great if there is wetter weather. I would say that it is largely due to global warming that we are fealing the heat. The heat is unbearable that I can't wait to go overseas to take a breather. Heat can result in many health problems like respiratory problems and even heat stroke. I guess I have to put more sunblock! Ahaha!

2011-05-18T05:03:00.000-07:00

Time flies. Seems like yesterday where I am in jC year 1 struggling with promotional examinations. And here I am. Year 2, almost in the middle of the year. Saw an article yesterday where a Japanese girl committed suicide because of stress. She said she screwed up her PSLE, olevels and alevels. She was such a pretty promising lady. Quite saddened that people attempt to take their lives because of tremendous pressure. Well, in life, who doesn't experience. Like what most drama serials would say,压力是来自自己. I guess it's true. Take for instance, me. It's not like my parents have high expectations and it's not like they want me to reach the sky. They just tell me to try my best. Am I glad to have such supportive parents! After all, behind every successful person is a supportive and loving family. I guess I am bothered because my ego is big? I don't wanna be looked down. I mean, isn't this society practical? People look at your status by your education, profession etc. Today, I read an article which shows 2 adults around 25 years old graduating from polytechnic. Well, what they say sort of inspired me. Don't ever let anything stop your from learning. Very insightful.

Well, this month is rather different. general election! Something exciting and novel to me! I guess when I was younger, I don't really care about such stuff. But now that I'm older, I'm more concerned because it's about our country. A pity I can't get to vote until the next one. All the rallies and publicizing were all over spore! Posters and all! Sometimes, I feel that politics seems like an interesting yet challenging profession field. Politicians come from people of all professions, from business consultants to notable lawyers. Diversity of them. Anyway, so the results are out and it's up to them to prove themselves, shape and mould the future. Well, at least for the next coming 5 years.

2011-05-04T00:01:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, I just don't understand my sister. Come on la, just a few minutes of waiting. I waited for like hours because of her before. It's not like I forced her to wait for me. I already like told her to go home herself umpteenth times but she refused. What can I do? So it's my fault for letting her wait? WTH seriously! And she can just cry crocodile tears and make me once again as the baddie? What is this man? Such an emotional person and I just come to to terms about it. So it's ok for me to wait for her and it's not for me? I mean like, it's just so unfair. Well, life is never unfair. I'm damn pissed now and in a super foul mood.

2011-04-10T02:56:00.001-07:00

I already sorted out all my thoughts already. I spent this whole weekends reflecting on my MBT papers. Went through the mistakes. I must say there were careless mistakes. darn it, really. ok I cannot have these kind of grades, its time for a big change. after all, a sad beginning makes a good ending, isn't it?

My dad said we are going to cruise in June! (: I can't even recall how it feels like on cruise. yay! (:

2011-04-08T02:36:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, a miss is as good as a mile. So what if one know a lot of things? Jack of all trades, master of none. I just can't have my cake and eat it after all. Got at B for PW. I wouldn't have felt so bad if I didn't know there were people who got As. Even my secondary school friend who was not on par with me got an A! Life is unfair. I thought MBT already set me at the end of my tether. I thought it was worst and the worst is over. To my dismay, it is not. Sometimes I just don't get what went wrong. I did worked hard so what is the problem? I even overcame fear of public speaking and put my best foot forward. So I should feel relieved but I don't cause some people just get higher grades than me and I just feel like some fool expertly an A, expecting for the clouds when I can't even reach the sky. It's just ludicrous, the whole thing about JC. Life just sucks, big time. Totally annoyed.

2011-03-29T07:32:00.000-07:00

Omg! Devil Beside You is really a highly recommended taiwan show to watch. Its contents are just exciting and fabulous! In the show, there is this guy and girl which parents remarried and they were thus sister and brother. Unfortunately, they fell in love with each other. Even though the male lead seems like a devil, he's cold and eccentric. It all boils down to one thing. He still has a good nature. He is what he is because of his sad childhood. In his childhood, his mother was very biased towards his brother as he was sickly. The male lead couldn't really feel a mother's love. It must really be terrible. A boy without love from his mother had to grow up and be very independent since young. Such deep wound is really hard to heal. I suddenly think that a happy childhood is all that one will ever yearn for. Memories of our own. This story was really touching, all the kinship and romance. Films of tears almost slide down my cheeks. Maybe love is really strong to the extent that the couple can survive through all ordeals. This show is just enticing!

I think Dreamhigh, a korean drama is brilliant too! Showed how some teenagers go through setbacks and stand up from where they fall and pursue their passion for music. Even though pil suk was fat, she didn't really let her appearance affect her pursuit of career. She continued singing and playing the guitar. Well, her talent is definitely not wasted. She has wonderful vocals definitely. I'm really inspired at how they pursue their love for music, Shows that we can make our dream a reality.

2011-03-28T00:54:00.000-07:00

It's just so heartache when I learnt that I failed my GP compo test. it's just weird. A year ago, passing English was never a problem and I never had to care so much. Whether I can pass or not. It's just a matter of whether I ace it or not. To my dismay, JC always crush my hopes. Every cloud have a silver lining? I just don't see any hope here. Annoying. My marks are just so bad. Nothing to say, speechless.
Had a long chat with my dad. I'm just so touched at what he said. He just want me to give my best, no regrets. All the more I feel bad. This is just so depressing. I want so much to do well! Really!

2011-03-04T20:43:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I got my a-level results. I got a B grade. Its not really up to my expectation.. I guess people are just greedy. Not contented with a B. Once one get a B, one will demand for an A. Well, that's life. I just hope i will be able to get over it soon.

2011-02-10T02:51:00.000-08:00

my parents are at it again. that's it. I'm not gonna care. But why must they drag me in their quarrels? I don't give a damn. Can't we have some peace? Valnetine's day is coming! How ironical.

My sisters are getting draggy this few days. OMG! I can't stand it seriously! And my smallest sister just know to throw tempers! Simply incorrigible ok. I really don't wish to care anymore. I already have many things on my plate so...

2011-02-06T05:28:00.000-08:00

Hey there! I can't believe I stayed at home all day completing my school work. That's what you get for a cny holiday. Piles of work stacking up the table gradually. I seriously wonder how my brain can take these amount of information. Haha. If a person is smart, its because he has a super good memory. So during this festive season, my family and I went to many places. Takashimaya, sakae sushi, marina square, OG, temple and many many makan places. I realised that the process of preparing for this season is worth reminiscing and unforgettable. So prosperity to all year! Year of rabbit this year. Hopefully, 2011 will be smooth-sailing! Most importantly, I must have a place to study in the local university. My ego is kinda big. And my pride.Haha. Typical person on earth.
Yesterday, we went to Sentosa and River Hongbao. If I wasn't wrong, there's this walkway from Vivo to Sentosa. There's a scenic view of the harbour. Water catchment areas too. The weather yesterday was kind of capricious. Sweltering in the noon and slight drizzle in the evening. There were already 200000 visitors in the first few days of the lunar new year. Took a stoll along the esplanade. I just suddenly realize that Singapore is so beautiful. I guess if we don't slow down and observe the surrondings, we will never know how good it is!
Hmm... Tomorrow is a school day again. The continuation of mugging again. God knows if I can just hang on.

2011-02-05T19:55:00.000-08:00

Chinese new year was supposed to be a balm to my frazzled nerves, or at least a tranquil part in my life of 2011. It's probably my only holiday day before alevels this year.
Yet, during Chinese New Year, people are asking me about my school life. I can't believe I have to tell them I'm in JC, not that I'm proud of it. But who knows year I may be in a poly?
Nevertheless, it was pretty fun. I enjoyed new year eve. Gathered at paternal family to have a reunion. Played Splat, Tom and Jerry and Monkey. Played UNO, Monopoly Deal and Murderer. To me, CNY is about having a fabulous time, a time where we put aside all our troubles and worries for at least that period of time. Best of all, gourmandising! I especially love cranberry oatmeal cookies which me and tiffany pestered dad to buy from ngee ann city's little nyonya. Love almond cookies too! Even though that left me with a hoarse voice and ulcers in my mouth, I still love feasting on these delicacies. Love shopping for CNY, especially clothes. Taking photos is definitely a must thing! Haha! Played bombbag too! Nothing beats being with my beloved cousins! (:

2011-01-21T04:10:00.000-08:00

This is definitely NOT my day. Firstly, I don't even know why my mum has such strong power to trigger those spasm of anger in me. Seriously, even though it's just a sentence, I feel quite incensed. You can say I'm sensitive but this is me. You can say I'm petty but I don't know why I am just pissed off at what she say. She's like,"before you say that your sister make noise, how about you? When you take a nap, how you expect your sister to do her homework?..." and then Sarah helped me to put in a few words. Thank god. But still. Sometimes I just feel like she's very biased to my smallest sister. Just because she's smart, top scholar and all, she's like the apple of her eyes. Whatever. It just hurts ok. Damn it. I'm so sentimental. Oh god. I hate myself. Oh ya so my mum first suspect I played truancy , then she says I'm a spendthrift, and now? I bet she's trying to say I'm selfish. Seriously, she just doesn't want anyone to butt in with anything to do with her dearest daughter. So she just spoil her. So whatever her precious daughter do is always right, me? Always wrong. I'm just an average student, nowhere compared to 261 student. Wow! So my dear parents just decide to bring and fetch her all the way as long as she is in dunman high. This is the only hope they can count for. The only genius in their life. So when we say some bad stuff, she just forgot about the main thing and get back at me? Did she even bother to find out the truth of clarify with her precios daughter? Seriously, doesn't it occur to my mum that sometimes it hurts when she make this kind of remarks? It just hurts, very badly.

2011-01-08T04:57:00.000-08:00

ok, I vowed not to do my homework in the eleventh hour but still... i guess people just like to take things for granted. haha and when i mean people, i mean me. Yesterday, I went for mass dance practice at school. Was rather reluctant and not in the mood at all to go. Me , dance? Are you kidding? I will just make a fool out of myself. Anyway, only 6 of us in our class went. If given't a choice, I don't think I will go, haha. Wanted to have dinner with Huiyin, unfortunately her mother was cooking so I was about to head home till Sylvia called and said she was free! So i met up with her at cityhall. Shopped around and had meal at Just Acia! Chatted for quite some time before proceeding to arcade. Sylvia's favourite haunt I guess! Then, we went home and watch Breakout last episode! East or West, home is best!

Today, I rushed through my chemistry tutorial in the morning. I even set my alarm early in the morning. I can't believe I spent so much time doing just some questions. Then, in the afternoon, I went to Whitesands to meet Sarah and Tiffany. Apparently, I was late because I was stuck at a chemistry question that I refuse to throw in the cards but still, I failed. Then, we went to Whitesands. Ate at Xinwang! Chicken mushroom bamboo rice! It's savoury. Then, went to Cup Walker to buy pudding milk tea as recommended by huiyin! Not bad. Went home at watch Love 5o% on xinmsn. I just love touching romance like this! Even though I know it's far from reality.

2010-12-31T23:40:00.000-08:00

It was an awesome new year eve party at Brian's house yesterday! Countdown! There was potluck. Helped mum to prepare the food in the afternoon. She cooked egg rolls and cut fruits. We were the Last to arrive at Brian's house cause there was an unexpected guest at our house. Uncle Kee Hong came and chatted with my parents. I heard them talking vaguely about my ambition to be a journalist. Haha, after helping huiyin to edit her essays, I suddenly yearn to be an editor. Isn't it weird? My ambition keeps changing. But I think it will still evolve around English language. (: I wouldn't say I am very good at it but I have a fervent passion for journalism and it still holds. I love the time where my teacher from British Council commented on my overall work and he said my writings were becoming more mature and lack of grammatical level seen at this level. I am proud of it. It may be a small accomplishment but somehow, writing never fail to give me a sense of achievement everytime. I hope maybe one day I can write an article in Straits Time or edit one. Sounds overly ambitious? Well, a girl can dream. And I will never stop dreaming. Uncle Kee hong said it is not necessary that I may become a journalist, I may end up being an editor etc etc.

He went off after 2hours of chatting and drinking booze. We arrived at Brian's house at approximately 8pm. All of them had already taken their meals. I was glad to see Nicholas and Marcus. It's been long ever since I last saw them. So we played game of Life! Apparently, I gave up after a few minutes of chaos because too many people were talking at the same time. Even the bankers were like pissed or something. Haha. Ya so I quitted the game in less than 5 min. Apparently, Nicholas and Madeline couldn't stand the madness and we started our own game with Tiffany as our banker. That was the fastest game of life! with 3 players. Then, we played blackjack and UNO. Then after, we went downstairs to play basketball and badminton. Played crocodile, ice and water and Monkey. Were in seventh heaven. Sometimes, I just wish this moments wouldn't end and so I need not think about my studies. Then, we went up and played monopoly deal. Watched the Korean awards and ate durian puff! Yum! Then, we countdown for 2011. In my heart, I don't really want 2010 to end. Because that means 2011 ensues. 2011 depicts a new beginning of alevels. Another national examination! More studying that means. 2011 merely gives me butterflies in the stomach. We played UNO spin and went home at 3am.

My resolutions for 2011
-score well enough in a levels to get into a local university
-be a better daughter
-be more sociable
-focus on journalism and music(:
-maintain healthy lifestyle to stay in the pink
-exude more air of confidence
-be more optimistic

That's all for now I guess?

2010-12-30T21:26:00.000-08:00

Hmm.. Seems like I just wasted my holidays again. Nevertheless, I had a whale of a time. I was thinking, since I will be very busy in 2011, why not enjoy the last of 2010? After all, its going to be gone forever. History can never repeats itself. Well, this few days I have been pretty engrossed in this Chinese drama, 一起来看流星雨。 It's a romantic drama and it all seems like a fantasy. Well, I do hope such ever-lasting love exist. I totally like the male lead. I like the way how he insist and persist on loving the female lead. He doesn't have any place for any other girls. He's rich but a little ill-tempered. He has this husky voice too. I just love those romantic words he said to the female lead. Haha. I guess all girls love a little bit of romance? I even went on and watch the cast's interview and found out that they are really different in real life compared to on screen. The female lead is actually a first time actress and yet she is just femme fatale. (: I really applaud her having to act in 800 over scenes. Acting isn't easy from what I see. To be able to get the emotions of the character and behave like them.

Ok it took some period of time for me to get out of the show and not think about it and focus on my work. That's why I say tv is a major distraction. Really. On Sunday, we went to maternal grandma's house. Had a sumptuous meal. I wanted to wash then dishes but my grandfather insisted on washing. This is the first time I felt that he does care about his grandaughter. For a moment, I'm kind of touched. I'm really blessed to have people doting on me. Ok, maybe I'm too sentimental. But isn't that so sweet? Then, we went to play monopoly deal with our cousins. Seriously, I think monopoly deal is one of the IN thing this season. Haha! Actually I wouldn't say it's very fun. I would much rather snuggle at the couch at watch my favourite drama. But it really depends who you play with. I swear feline is kind of annoying. She keeps hitting me when she play. When will she ever learn? Getting her to change is like taking blood out of a stone sometimes.

On tuesday, we went to JB again. Went to a Japanese Restaurant and partake some japanese dishes. Deja vu! I love the garlic fried rice! Mouth-watering and Can beguile our palette! Then, we went to Redbox and sing karaoke! My voice was kind of hoarse though. Aha! Then, we went to Chua Kee restaurant too eat bee hoon and several dishes! Fun ttm!

On Wednesday, went to meet Chloe, ashwini, and Jun xian at pasir ris bus stop. Unfortunately, Divya and Cheryl wasn't able to make it last minute. We went to sengkang and go to Rebecca's house for steamboat! Gave her chocolates! Her house just have this homey feel(: and it's cooling. (: chloe gave us gifts she bought from taiwan. She even got me face masks! So nice of her! Ashwini gave us pens she abd divya got from gold coast. Felt kind of guilty cause i didnt really buy anything from taiwan. Everywhere we went were kind of expensive. we watched tv and drank vodka mixed with some cocktail! Not bad! Rebecca sure knows how to enjoy life! I actually felt hot after a while! Haha. Then, we left. I went to cityhall to meet huiyin. We sauntered by marina square and milled around suntec city to take some photos! Then, we met Sylvia and ate dinner at pizzahut! (:

I'm now actually looking forward to new year eve party and brian's later. Just helped mum with dishes for later. Potluck! All the goumandising! awesome! Ok, gotta eat some food now! Gonna gourmandise and party! Ciaos!

2010-12-27T01:22:00.000-08:00

I know my previous post is rather sombre. But I have thought it through. Even if I can't make it, it's ok as long as I give my best shot.

So my holidays went quite well. Went for an 8 day trip to Taiwan. Many beautiful sceneries. But I just have this weird feeling. The more fun I had, the guiltier I feel. I feel like o shouldn't be there, should be working hard for alevels. Cannot let down anyone. Especially for the sake of my pride. Seriously, I think I'm too paranoid at times. Taiwan was an awesome place! Especially because we made friends with the people in our tour. We even met at night and play cards in our room. (: brilliant! Night market was actually disappointing because it really seemed nice on tv. To my dismay, it is just like Chinatown and there's even motorbikes trying to get through the narrow street. Dont really feel that safe compared to Singapore. And the tour guide has to tell us what to do if we faced an earthquake. That really freaked us out. Haha. Nevertheless, i love the part where we went to live in 木屋. Great experience! There were farms and we even 滑草. There were also karaoke, archery and cultural dance! I really like their dances cause it really gives you a sense of belonging and has traditional value. The songs are welcoming too!
Went to themepark and I set on UFO! It's like 26 storey tall. The sudden drop really made my legs wobbly. Haha! Went on space mountain but I thought hk's was more fun. Oh ya, the delicacies are tasty top especially Lu rou fan. It's cheap and nice!
Kind of missed my tour friends when I came back to sPore.

Then, after a few days, we went to genting with paternal relatives and feline's family. It was awesome! Watched Rapunzel, played bowling and themepark. Played games like Murderer, Snap and UNO spin in Brian's room! I remembered how John woke us up early in the morning. Haha

Then it was Christmas eve. We had a party at our house with them again(: potluck! My aunt prepared sumptuous food. Her culinary skills are just superb. Played Life! , glowsticks, Stress and so on! Xavier came too! He has grown up so fast! (: received presents from jingmin Jie , Aunty grace and feline. Countdown Xmas too! Best of all, Ashley and church friends came caroling. It was cool and entertaining! There was a big group of them. Slept at 5am that day.

2010-12-22T05:16:00.000-08:00

I know that I have been appearing to be optimistic but I'm tired. Very exhausted. I don't wanna lie to myself. Let's face it, I lack the appearance and the intelligence. I'm just a man of straw. I mean nothing. No value. Even when I cry, my sister thought I was faking it. They are smart and good-looking, I'm anything but that. Let's face it. I'm just a failure. No achievements. Why is it that whenever she gets an award, apart from being proud, a part of me feels shattered? Am I just jealous or is my ego too big? I do have to admit, I care about how people look at me. I wanna show people that I am capable. My life sucks. I suck. Seriously, no one knows how much turmoil I'm in now. No word can describe it. I'm just in an abyss of misery. Dreaming of becoming a successful person? I should just dream on. Ya. Stop being such a burden on my family. I don't know how they can tolerate me. I'm nothing really. Why am I in such a rueful plight? I'm just a snippet.

2010-11-28T05:42:00.000-08:00

I finally feel like its the holidays. Ohya, congrats to my sister! She got 261 in PSLE! 2nd in school. Awesome! So proud of her!!

On Friday, my family and I went to Johor for seafood dinner. Impromptu decision. We didn't know where to go for dinner. So my dad suggest jb, and off we went!

On Saturday, I woke up early in the morning to read my novel, "Crazy in Love". Well, I do love romance novels but doesn't this book makes me seem desperate? My sisters picked this book for me at the library. Haha. Well, its about this female lead who's wealthy and can have anything she wants until it comes to romance. She's desperate to a point where she's even willing to be kidnapped. Sometimes, its kind of hard to understand how much people do for love.

My dad cooked noodles in the morning for breakfast. Yummy! Then, we went to wash up and was dressed to the nines. We are going to JB! I had told Dad that I wanted to sing karaoke. Its been ages since I sang because of the presentation for PW. Woohoo! Finally I can sing!! I just love singing even though I wouldn't say that I'm a good singer. Haha. Dad made reservations at 1pm. However, there was a delay. There was a jam in the causeway, so I was almost swearing.

Arrived ten minutes late, thank goodness, the reservation still holds. Ordered side dishes to fill our stomach for we haven't had lunch. We sang for 3 hours. After that, Dad brought us to Lavender. I ate chicken rice while Sarah had pasta and Tiff had congee. I was obviously starving. Mum was not there because apparently, she's at the salon, dying her hair. Then, we shopped around. Then after, we went to Giant and Tesco. Bought sneakers which I can wear for the Taiwan trip! (: Tiff bought shoes and pants too. Hope my feet won't ache when I walk too much.

After which, we went to Restaurant Chua Kee to have dinner. Seafood again!!! Haha.

Today, I spent my whole day reading my novel and watching the TV. In the evening, we went to Elias Mall to have dinner with paternal relatives. It was so much fun!!!

Ok, tomorrow's Monday. Need to get real. Start revision. Need lots of time to catch up. I must get through alevels. I can do it.....

2010-11-12T05:35:00.000-08:00

Phew. Just did a draft of my Insights and Reflections for project work. Can't imagine doing reports regularly in future. So much affort put in just for the project. I really hope hard work pays off. I wouldn't say that it was a breeze. Haha. Anyway, the presentation turn out smooth, not to bad. I am quite satisfied about my perfromance because I knew I already gave my best shot. I wouldn't regret it. I can't say about Q&A but I guess my answer is sort of relevant? Hopefully. Crossing my fingers. I really miss my classmates, this whole time was spent with my group members. Wasn't that bad but still...

Watched a show, Legally Blond just now. Gave me several insights. Haha, too much project work. Well, the character, Elle did not give up in herself when she sort of screwed up on the very first day at Havard University. She proved herself as well as others that they were wrong. She's blond but she can go far too. Well, I really love the way she expresses herself in court. Sometimes I sort of have fantasies of me being an attorney. Haha, who am I kiddding. Me and public speaking? Please. I struggled very long to come this far for the JC presentation. I am really nervous once I see people diverting all their attention to me and only me. The tension, the nervousness. It's so difficult. My teacher once said, everyone will be nervous, its just a matter of how you contain that nervousness.

Actually, there are times where I hate myself for being so timid, lacking in courage. It is just so dumb. Ok, I am trying to change. My sister told me that I can barely maintain any eye contact. Yeah, engaging audience is the difficult part. I always feel like I can faint any time when standing in front of them.

I need to get real. And start being realistic.

2010-11-10T02:06:00.000-08:00

On Saturday, went to maternal grandma's place to partake in a lunch buffet. There's sushi!(: As usual, twins, Gregg and June were bugging me to allow them to use my iphone. Seriously, what's so good about iphone? Its just an addiction. Was feeling very listless and legs felt wobbly. Felt as if I had no energy. I was really bored there. TTM! One day, I will probably just give it a miss. Why must we go so early all the time? It's really boring. But there are awesome food. Haha

On Sunday morning, we went to Jalan Kayu for breakfast. Roti Prata! Proceeded to cemetry with my paternal relatives. Feeling weak all over and had cramps. Whoa, my health is damn weak. It was hot sweltering, for goodness sake. I chatted a while with Madeline. Apparently, we were under a shady tree drinking cold and refreshing green tea. Well, that of course made my cramps worse. Ain't I just asking for it? Haha. But I really cannot be bothered, I mean, who can resist that? It was simmering and I'm like burning. Ok, starting to sound like some bimbo. Poor Sarah was in the car, she was feeling nauseous and felt like barfing.

After that, we went to maternal grandma's place again to meet the others. With that, we proceeded to Johor! Had lunch at a place recommended by Clifton's father. Had kway chap. Frankly, I think it tasted extremely, perfectly normal. Then, we went to Jusco. It is another branch that we do not frequent, or rather have not been there. I think the Jusco outlet that we went in the past was much better because there is karaoke and cinema. Oh well. I should stop complaining. Anyway, I didn't really get to enjoy as much because my cramps just came and went. Painful. Sarah barfed, luckily right into a bin. Goodness gracious. She rested while me and Tiff went to shop. She need to attend her prom and I really think she should get some new clothes. Unfortunately, her preferences are very different from me so no luck. Fortunately for me, I milled around the mall and bought two pieces of clothing. Quite affordable and cheap. Hope Mum don't feel that I'm a spendthrift! Seriously, I really think I would have bought more clothes if I wasn't in pain.

Then, we went to a seafood restaurant for dinner. Barely had appetite and so I ate a little. Plus there was a storm with gusty winds , so I sort of trembled. But anyway I'm glad I got through it.(:

2010-10-16T21:31:00.000-07:00

So i failed my geography as well. On the bright side, I passed my maths and econs! (: I guess I can be advanced? Hopefully. I don't wanna go though one more year of JC life and CCA. Waste of time.
Wed- I went to Chinatown Family KTV with my secondary school friends. Weiling introduced this karaoke to us! It was rather cheap, $10 per person. We sing for like 5h from 2 to 7pm. There is free flow of drink and a bowl of shark fin soup too(: I really must introduce this to my sisters. Ok, so there were like 10 of us. Me, Huiyin, Sylvia, Zixian, Michelle, Vivian, Jieying, Grace, Weiling and Sandy. 5h wasn't really enough for us since there were 10 of us. But nevertheless, we had fun. We bought takeaway to eat inside, nasi lemak!(: Yummy! Halfway through huiyin and I were like bored so we sort of chatted and played around. Hehe. Jieying sang lots of oldies. But I manage tio recognise some. Then, we went to shopped at Chinatown. Grace went home. Huiyin bought her sister's birthday present. Then, we headed to Plaza Singapura for dinner. Ate Japanese food, delicious! Went to the arcade too but I went back first cause there was school tomorrow. Bought honeydew smoothie and went home!(:

Friday-I was overjoyed. I got my grade 6 music practical examination certificate. I passed! I thought I would have fail because I was really nervous on the red-letter day and made numerous mistakes. Its really difficult to pass because the passing grade is like 100/150. I just passed with a score of 104. Thought I could perform better. Piano teacher told me that this is something inevitable. Of all practical exams, there are bound to be some slipshods. So now I have to focus on Grade 6 theory. My family and I went to fetch Daddy from the airport. He came back from HK! Went to Bedok North to have dinner. He bought iphone covers for me again! Haha, what does this imply? I have to use iphones for decades. Hehe. He bought a new pink ipod speaker for Sarah and a bigger memory card for Tiffany's DS so she can download more games. Best thing of all, he bought Gucci bag and wallet for Mum! I bet Mum was like thrilled to the max!

Yesterday-I thought I will be stuck at home like a couch potato because Sarah hasn't finish her EOY exams. Nevertheless, she said she was free and didn't need to study. So my family and I went to JB! Long time since I have been there! I have been very busy for the last few months and didn't follow my parents when they went there. Now I can finally go!! Excited! Decided to go there to have a haircut and karaoke! There was a humongous traffic jam that I felt I had slept for ages in the car. When we reached Jusco, it was already 4 plus. So we didn't have a chance to have a haircut. Instead, we went to Red Box. We sang karaoke with dinner buffet from 5pm. They said we can sing till 1am. Wow! That's like freaking 8 hours!(: My parents left us to do their own shopping and popped by a few times. There were free flow of drinks. I kept drinking their white coffee! I really had a great time! Their service was like excellent and I didn't feel that awkward at all. Best thing is, there are 3 microphones. Better than Kbox. So we don't have to keep hogging on the microphones. Went for a few rounds in the buffet. Love the soup! I hate to say it, but JB's karaoke is definitely better than Singapore's. So we sang till 11 plus. Apparently, our parents had nothing to do already and the stores in the mall are like closed. So we went back! Home sweet home! (:

2010-10-12T05:43:00.000-07:00

Today, I got back my Chinese paper. Got 67/100 for my paper. As usual composition was not for very good. Got a mere 35/60. Ok, now I know I passed Chinese and GP. Geography? I really don't know. Mr Chen said most of us passed. Once again, I have to say, its most of us, not all. I may be one of the unlucky minority who failed. But I wasn't outting all my hopes very high. I just wish to pass my Maths. But hell, I will only be getting that back on Friday. If i failed geography, I would be freaking out. Hais, so worried. Hope I can pass maths and geography. At least I will feel more secure. I am not even sure about econs.
Its just so scary, getting the papers back, not seeing the results you desire. Life sucks! Totally. I really don't wanna go through another rigourous year. Still have to attend CCA which is really a bore.
Teacher said that it will be difficult accepting the results and all but we have to adjust and focus on PW and Chinese for now. Speaking of PW, I am really worried for oral presentation. My public speaking sucks. Its really been a long time since I did presentation all by myself. Can I perform well in highly pressurizing situation? I have lots of doubts now. I do not know if I can make it. What if I am retained? This is so sickening. Can't I have best of both worlds?
Now listening to kenny g's ' In a sentimental mood' . This melody probably describes me well. But I love the sound of saxophone anyway. It just sound very relaxing and romantic.

2010-10-11T02:38:00.000-07:00

ok I am really freaking out. I failed my chemistry. 35.5 marks. An improvement compared to mid year exams. But still its a U grade. I really do not have confidence in geography and maths. I am afraid that I cannot even be advanced to next year. I am really struggling. Rebecca told me today that she was on the bright side, if she really has to retain, at least there is no PW and Chinese. I really want to be that optimistic like her but i can't. I really cannot afford to be retianed. This is like the worse thing ever.
I had a dream that I passed my Maths, not with flying colours but still, its a pass. My friend once told me that dreams are always the exact opposite of reality. What she said really scared me. What if I really failed maths? This is the only glimmer of hope now. I can't help but wonder, what would become of me if I am retained. Can I still pick myself up and be someone successful that I wanna be? I just feel so tired, why on earth did I enter a JC? This is so frustrating. I hate this kind of very unstable life. I feel like I am sinking, sinking into an abyss of misery.
My dad said to me one night, that life is full of obstacles. Being able to enter a JC is something like a bonus. Not everyone can make enter or do well there. I should learn to take it in my stride. But why? Why do I have to be the one who fail? Why can't I excel? I just feel a little reluctant to admit that I may not be able to make it. My parents are really supportive in whatever I do. All the more I should do well and not let them down.
During these few days, I went out with my friends. I just want to relax and forget about reality. I don't wanna go back to where I am now. A very difficult position.
If there is something such as a miracle, I really long for one, one which makes me succeed and pass my promos at least for now.

2010-10-10T02:39:00.001-07:00

Yesterday, my maternal relatives came to our house. Dad bought lots of seafood so he and Mum decided to invite them over for dinner. 四姨，大姨came earlier to help out, so sweet!(: The twins played Wii. Then gregg and my grandparents came too. Then, I left for piano lesson for an hour. Then, Sarah and Ah T came to fetch me. Think they had nothing better to do. My piano teacher's house is just a stone's throw away. Then, we had dinner. Mum cooked beehoon! Yum. And there were squid, fish, crayfish and stingray. Love the squid!(: Then, we went to the park. Played at the beach. Twins and June were playing with the sand, we played soccer too. Then after, we wentto the playground. At around 7pm, we went back. Had a whale of a time. Ah finally had a chance to flaunt her magic with her expensive magic set. Cool!! So much fun! Twins and June stayed over for a night.(:

2010-10-08T06:01:00.000-07:00

After a storm comes calm. My parents made up(: Maybe after every quarrel makes a relationship stronger each time. They even when to the park for dinner. How romantic(:
Today, I went out with Huiyin, Sylvia Sab and Azhar to downtown. Had dinner at Mcdonalds. Walked around before we went to Kbox. Had a great time! Sang for 4 hours!
Then after, I went with Sylvia and Huiyin to Just Acia to have dinner. Chatted. Bought FBT shorts from Carrefour and went home!(:

2010-10-07T02:16:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, there's this post exam activity which is go to army. Actually, I didn't really think I need to now what it looks like inside. Its not as if we will be going to army next time. Nevertheless, it was an eye opener. I actually fired a gun which is brilliant. There are even army food available for us to sample.
Then, we went back to school. I went with some of my classmates to Whitesands library to have lunch. Had student meal, spaghetti! Awesome! Rebecca chatted with a stranger she doesn't know. Its really great making new friends this way. In other countries, such things are common but Singapore? Not really. Then, I went to meet Dorothy, Sylvia and Huiyin. We went ot Orchard Road. Went to accompany them to eat at the foodcourt. Shopped at cotton on. Bought a pair of shoes, damn happy! A sense of satisfaction as always after buying shoes. Shoe paradise! Then, we walked for ages, window shopping(:
Then after, we went to Bugis, 天天火锅to have dinner. Steamboat buffet! Its like a rountine.(: Chatted and joked around. Went to shop and then went home(:

2010-10-05T07:00:00.000-07:00

So this was it. Promos over. Leave it to fate. Don't know why but I didn't feel that relieved when the paper was over. I'm still fretting over my results that I have yet to receive. This is worse than olevels. Everyday in JC is like a time bomb. I don't even know how long I can persist.
But the thing is, what is done cannot be undone, no point crying over spilt milk. So today, after exams, I went with my fellow classmates to Suntec. Ate at Aston's. Yum! But we waited for a long time. Shopped around till my legs are aching, even till now. Then, went bowling at Marina Square. The place is really old, from my perspective. I don't even feel like I'm bowling. Haha.
But anyway. Then, we went to Eng Wah cinema to watch The Other Guy. Wanna watch Charlie st cloud but unfortunately its not on screen there. Oh well. The show is more of a comedy though some parts are sort of boring. Different people have different opinions I guess. Haha. The cinema was quite empty, except for just a few people whom I can literally use my fingers to count. Ya, that pathetic. Then, we went to Raffles Place to have dinner. Ate red ruby! Then, came home and use the computer(:

2010-10-02T21:11:00.000-07:00

I cannot believe this. I feel weaker by the day. My flu has not turn for the better. Its like I have no strength. I really don't wanna experience another round of heartache. What if I got to the family doctor and accept treatment? What if I still don't recover? I don't wanna see another specialist and turn out that i need another surgery or whatsoever. I am so tired of all this. All this thinking and leading to nowhere. Two things that I'm constantly worrying about now: My health and Promos.

My parents are nowhere better. They are quarreling are having the cold war. I hate to be the messenger. Why can't they be like a few days ago where they are so loving and even went to jb without us on weekends because of our exams? Divorce is always the word they talk about whenever they bicker. Seriously, can't they just reconcile? I got more things on my cards now. I am really getting a very bad impression on marriage. Marriage it like grooming a plant. It needs sufficient sunlight and water. Without any of those, even the strongest plant on earth cannot survive. As fragile as it seems, a sense of bliss and warmth can be felt at times. Sigh, ok I shall not think about this. Like what my sister says, its none of our business if they quarrel. We shall not fret over such stuff.

2010-10-02T01:03:00.000-07:00

I don't know why, but I'm supposed to be feeling relieved after taking econs and geog paper. 2 papers down. I'm not the least confident for any of the papers I took so far. I am really pinning all my hopes on maths now. Just did vectors, headache. I thought i had revised but no, my maths still sucked. Spent 2 hours for 3 questions. Really vexed and perturbed now.

Someone once said, 'Life is full of challenges but challenges are what we live for.' Great, I do not think I can be that optimistic. People are demanding. Once one get better grades, one will yearn for better things. Looking from it at one angle, I can say that people are just trying to scale greater heights because of mounting expectations and the mindset of upgrading oneself. Looking from another angle, why can't I say that people are just avaricious?

人就是那么自私，要求多多，一旦得到了一些，自己对自己的要求也跟着增加。自我提升是件好事，但是我是不是太不自量力了呢？

Ok,maybe I'm just plain depressed and very demoralized. But I should just know my limitations. I am just from a neighbourhood primary school, who got average grades. I went to an ordinary secondary school, got to stand out there. Maybe its just pure luck? Lady luck shined on me again, and I could get into JC. Outcome? I really went to JC. My relatives think I am a bright student, what is going to happen if I really retain? What is people gonna think of me? I admit that I am really someone is conscious of my pride. I am really afraid of how people look at me.

我真的能做得到吗？运气和奇迹真的会再出现吗？我为什么要这么固执选这条路？我为什么要欺骗自己呢？

2010-09-27T02:53:00.000-07:00

Ok, so today's gp paper was fine. I think i can pass, at least i hope i can. Really heaved a sigh of relief cause fail gp and that's it. I was really freaking out before the exam. I was kind of unlucky, cause i got stomachache in the middle of paper 1. Certainly not to my advantage. I persisted and completed it before I went to the toilet which is in the midst of examinations. I didn't have much of a choice, I almost crumbled. Fortunately, it was not that bad for paper 2.
Haha. This really reminds me of my o levels chinese paper. I was sick when i took that paper. A miracle happened and i got an A for that although i made no attempts to check. I was like very pale at that time, my teacher kept going to my table and ask if I am okay every few minutes during the paper. Gosh, I really don't wanna be ill when i sit for my maths paper.
Ok, gotta mug! Crap, I have geog and econs paper on the same day! I am so gonna let my hair down after all these.

2010-09-21T04:45:00.000-07:00

oh dear, my throat is getting worse. Maybe I am paranoid. But things are just unpredictable. My health has not always been in great condition. I hate that feeling of just being weak all over and unable to do anything. Just so useless. Promos are coming and yet, still not in the pink. Not to my advantage at all.
Still pondering over my piano exams. I still think I could give it a better shot. Well, life's like that. Just full of regrets.

2010-09-11T22:10:00.000-07:00

There's got to be more to life than just mugging and putting myself in the world of books. I went to my granny's house on Friday. Had lunch there. My aunt made sushi, its really nice! Love home-made perennial food! Then, played with my cousins. Played soccer at the balcony. We chatted about Camp Rock 2, all obssessed with the songs, especially This is our song. I just love it. I think Nick Jonas look good in the movie.
Then, we went to eat snacks. Biscuits, cake and potato chips. Then after, our aunt brought us to West Mall. Went to arcade, Timezone.
Then, we went back and have dinner. After that, we went to play with sparkles at the garden. Before we knew it, we were like playing with leaves and whatever we could think of. Even thought of burning pomelo skin. Haha. Then, we went home.

Yesterday, went to Sizzlers Chicken ( don't know if i got the name right ). Uncle was giving us a treat. My maternal cousins, Vanessa and Madeline and us were the earliest. Went in and order fisrt. Buffet!! (: Had mushroom cheese teriyaki, mind ya, it was costly. Then, my relatives started coming and finally, John. He's so cute!!! Brian was so cute when he started calling out to him, John john. Haha. We chatted and then, my family and I went to shop at suntec. Bought new luggage for taiwan trip(: Went to carrefour to buy some groceries too(: Then, we went to bedok and have porridge(:

2010-09-06T00:26:00.000-07:00

Wow, yesterday was definitely a balm to my frazzled nerves. It's been such a long time ever since I enjoyed myself. Yesterday, I was feeling damn sian, didn't feel like mugging. Told dad to bring us out. And he did! I thought maybe we can go to Johor or something. HOwever, Mum have something on at night. So, my family and I went to Raffles Town Club for high tea. So classy and nice! High tea buffet! Wow!! Long time ever since I enjoy such lap of luxury. Chatted with my sister. Apparently, Tiffany and Dad were like obsessed with Ipad. Haha.
Then, we went to bring mum to qigong thingy while we proceeded to Liang's court. My dad was so sweet! He let us sing karaoke at Partyworld despite the hefty sum he had to pay for us. So we stayed there for like 4 hours while my dad went to his friend's house to play a few rounds of mahjong. Haha.
Then at 9pm, he came to fetch us. We went to fetch Mum. Then, we went to Newton's Circle to eat some local delicacies like oyster omelette, chicken wings, hokkien mee and carrot cake! (: Went home and watched HSM3 and fell asleep.

2010-08-31T02:33:00.000-07:00

How time flies! Many things happen in a brink of time. Had a series of examinations going on for the past week. Was really disappointed in my piano exam. Can't even hold a candle to the rest. My hands were kind of stiff when i played the 3 pieces, much to my dismay. That spasm of agony in me, that abyss of misery, that pang of guilt, that tinge of regret... those mixed feelings remain inside me. How am i to excel in the music industry?

Then comes SPA examination. Chemistry is one of my favourite subject. The experimental techniques i used were like down the drain. After the exam, my friends were like in the midst of discussion on the results of the paper and so on. But I dont want to know. Really. What is the point?

Spend lots of my time on my work nowadays. I even gave up a chance to go JB!!!!!

2010-08-21T01:14:00.000-07:00

Went to Parkway Parade yesterday. Seemed like nothing changed much over the years. I reminisced the times i came with my sisters for tuition. The times i had with my friends, we ordered delivery(chicken rice) in between lessons. I remembered the painful lessons spent with my tutor..(she used a ruler to hit our hands if we got the answers wrong).. Haha.
So yesterday, my family and I went there to eat dinner at the foodcourt. Tiffany and I then went to Kawai Music School 's studio to test out the piano. Spent about an hour in there. So nervous for exam!! Then, we went home!!(:

2010-08-14T02:20:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, there was no lessons. I went for piano lessons. PIano intensive. Went through the pieces,scales, sight-reading and aural. I was really disappointed in my pieces. I could have done better in the dynamics of the melodious tune. I should have paid attnetion to every little details because it will afftect the overall performance. Was feeling kind of depressed.

Then, went home and went to meet Rebecca at the airport at Burger King. She's always so clubby and genial. She didn't seem to mind a bit that I was late and kept her waiting. We had lunch. Apparently, after partaking sundae and fries, we were like so bloated to consume the burger. So we took our time by doing chinese elearning online. Then, we did chemistry assignment. Did promos package! I like doing functions, she thought I'm kooky. Haha.

So that took up our afternoon. Had the same meal for dinner. I really felt like puking. Haha. I swear i'm not gonna eat ice-cream and burger for this entire month. Then, we read some geog and went home!(:

Today, went for bowling pe elective at E!hub. I really think i suck despite the fact that I did better than usual. Thanks to the coach, I got the techniques right. My hand sort of hurts now though.

2010-08-10T06:13:00.001-07:00

This is it. I have to pass my promos. I want to. Even though my parents were not really pressurising me. But still. Why do I have to fail? The choice is mine. I CAN do it! I hope so. Hmmm.. Ok so time really flies. It's going to be exams again in a couple of weeks. Yeah, life sucks.
On saturday, I went to sylvia's voideck. Huiyin , zixian, Sylvia were playing badminton at the court. Well, they did ask me if I was interested in a match. But seriously. Me, sports? Haha! Funny. I accompanied Dorothy to 7-11. Ended up in the outlet at elias mall instead. She bought her juice and we went back to meet the rest. Then, we went to ikea to have dinner. What a hearty meal we had!!(: and it's not even ten dollars!!
We had a whale of a time. Chatted about going overseas in the future together in future! Hongkong was our first destination,(: went to downtown east to collect Zi xian's kbox card(: then after, we milled around changi airport.. Woo!! Really wish we can go overseas straightaway!! Enjoying life! Hais, that's really long!! Then, my dad fetch me from whitesands. So sweet!(:

I spent my entire Saturday at my maternal grandma's place. Frankly, I feel like I'm wasting my time there. Despite bringing all my revision stuff there, I ended up doing nothing at all. Really unproductive. All I felt like doing was to take a long long nap. Clifton didn't come cause he sprained his leg. Ow! That must really hurt. Feline and my sisters went off to the park to play badminton, why do the people around me like badminton that much? Haha! Apparently, my aunt was watching some Cantonese romance drama. The longer I watched, the sleepier I got. Gregg was occupying himself with my iPhone. Hais, whoever can resist technology?
Then, we had a chatty meal, my grandma whipped up a feast!!(: yum!

Yesterday, I went to do project with ashwini and changi airport. After doing the written report, we were starving so we went to have lunch at terminal3 foodcourt. Briyani!!(: Then, we went to mcdonalds. I had ice-cream. Hais, unfortunately, the waitress said that no studying allowed. Hello, so many of them were studying. We had no choice but to go to staff canteen to study. Met rebecca there. Sometimes, i will be wondering, why on earth are people mugging for olevels in airport? It's nothing compared to alevels!!! Hais, anyway, did some chem before I left and went to meet huiyin, Dorothy, zixian, Michelle and Vivian at cityhall. There were hordes of shoppers. But I guess most of the people were there to see the fireworks. How patriotic!! Haha. We had yoshinoya. Chatted. They made me so excited for nothing la about going overseas. Then I went home(:

2010-07-31T20:32:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I went for meet-the-parent session in the morning. My mum came along with me. Mr Chow was like so serious. The first question asked was, did i study during the June holidays? I was kind of stunt when the question was thrown at me. I did of course, but maybe not enough? ok, I was kind of guilty. But it was the holidays, there is biund to be a host of temptations I can't succumb to right? I got 3 Us and passes for the other 3 subject. Now my result slip is scarred. I really can't believe it. I am really kind of doubtful and insecure about my future. I can hardly cope. My dream:publish my own novel and be a renowned pianist. Possible? Hmm...

So the teachers actually remarked that I am very quiet in class, am I? Haha. I failed all my content-based subjects. They said I should change my studying methods. O-level and A-level are worlds apart. I have a long, long way to go. My mum didn't say anything but I reckon she must be feeling perturbed about my grades too. And the fact that I may be retained.

Went to maternal grandma's house too. When we arrived, only Brian and Brandon were there. Watched tv. Nicholas and Marcus then came. We played DS. Then, Vanessa and Madeline came. We chatted. Went to partake some perennial food, nasi lemak cooked by my grandmother. Ican smell the fragrance of the rice from far. Seventh heaven! Haha. This was the time I tried to not think about anything and just have fun!

Then, we watched tv and went home!!

2010-07-24T20:10:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was really awesome to the max!! I met with huiyin at west plaza bus stop in the morning and we boarded the bus to pss. There's this mega event at pss , 10th anniversary, carnival and opening of sports hall!(: We arrived super early and everyone was apparently late. I was telling huiyin that it doesn't pay to be early birds. Haha. So we waited for ages and Michelle, Vivian, weiling, Wendy and Lilian finally turned up. Dorothy went to help out in band earlier so she came and meet us at bus stop too(: Went on in.
The response of this mega extravaganza.is really huge. Apperently, many people brought their friends and family and members of public came too. Went to see Zandy. She was ravishing! Haha. Then we sang happy birthday to Zi Xian. Went to a classroom and chatted. It was great catching up with them. We took many photos with teachers and principal.
Then, went with some classmates to e-hub. Watched sorcerer's apprentice. Fabulous show. There were like around 15 of us. Then, the guys went to Starbucks while we walked around. Wanted to go k box but it was so expensive. We strolled at the park instead. Went to elias and ice-cream!! Went home around 9 or so.

2010-07-22T03:03:00.000-07:00

This is really sad. I regretted after the a level listening comprehension. Why is life full of such regrets? Seriously. I suddenly think I have no time to do other things when there's like tremendous revision I have to endure. Am I able to overcome adversities of titanic proportions? In this hedonistic society, I am subjected to a host of temptation that I cannot really succumb to. I really can't seem to find the continuous sources of confidence glowing within me once.
Then there's my sister who's a miss-know-it-all. Have to admit that she is bright but really, she doesn't have to show me that like, always. Rectifying every word that I say. I don't need someone to constantly keep proclaiming that I am stupid. In her eyes, she's always smarter than me. Even in piano, she has to outshine me, I have my dignity and pride. It will be fallacious to say that I do not mind because I do as a matter of fact. No doubt she is intelligent, but why can't she admit that she does make mistakes at times? She isn't right all that time. That's what I get for having a genius sister. Oh well.

2010-07-17T22:12:00.000-07:00

So I got my results. Passed 3, failed 3 subjects. The situation is that bad. Here I am worrying about my results and upcoming promotional exams. And my parents are at it again. Cat and dog life. I guess marriage is really the grave of love. I should have known. They are worlds apart. They quarrel about everything. Religion, money, in laws, and now, medication. Seriously, when will they sober up? My parents are unpredictable. If they bicker, both are temperamental and flares up easily. They can quarrel all they want, but please don't mess up my life. Don't let it affect me. Ok, hardly possible. Who am I kidding?

2010-07-04T09:23:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was fabulous to the max!! Went to eat bar chor mee at bucket merah with my family for lunch. Then after, we went to Chevron's club for Feline's birthday party! We went there to sing ktv. I already had sore throat. After rounds of singing, I sound really bad. My voice was seriously hoarse. Sarah sang the most. She was daring enough to sing in front of our relatives. Mum and aunts kept chatting. So we were like singing over the ripples of conversation. Oh well. I think my singing sucks. Haha! Then, we played a round of badminton. We then went to have dinner-buffet at the chalet!
After that, I played badminton with tiffany again. Sarah brought Clifton's ball too. So we played basketball with feline, kaijie, kaishen, June and gregg. After a while, that's this group of guys who came and ask if they can join in. So we split teams again and played!! Boy, they were really fast. But was glad that they did not play that roughly. They were really good at basketball though. Then, we dragged korx and Clifton to play. The game was so fun. I ran like mad , think I ran like more than 2.4km, haha but willingly this time. It was really awesome to make friends through a friendly match. They didn't taunt or jeer at us. Rather, they were really encouraging. The team spirit was something very impressive and commendable. I was kind of clumsy at the end of the match. It was dark and couldn't really see the ball( I know that sounds absurd, but it was true!) Apparently i was like so exhausted. But I don't know why guys are that energetic. I used to think basketball was more of a guy thing , but now , I know how brilliant it is and why guys would spend so much time playing under the sweltering sun. My legs were hurting though, to my dismay. But I guess it was worth it. Then, we went to sing happy birthday to feline. She looked fabulous! She kind of blushed when I told her that. Haha.
Then, we went bowling, or rather they went. I didn't play because I felt kind of unwell which was really a pity cause I do feel like giving it a shot. Clifton didn't play as well. Then, dad and all of our parents came along and played bowling. Yay! Dad got strikes!! Seriously, I only remembered getting like two strikes in my life cause my bowling skills suck. But it was fun. I could have felt better if I was in the pink. After a while, I could sense an urge of vomiting so I ran to the toilet. Felt better after that. Clifton , korx and see yah Jie played pool. Then, w went home. Sarah and I had endless conversation talking about the fabulous day! Today, I can hardly speak. Argh! Hope that I will feel better tomorrow!

2010-06-30T09:04:00.000-07:00

I am so relieved. My last paper is over. Mid year exams OVER. I am gonna drown into an abyss of misery soon. All the subjects were so difficult and were tough nuts to crack. To think I even revised for the exams. That aura of confidence in me before the examinations just disappeared somehow now. Everything's over. I am not pessimistic but things are really that bad. Chemistry was worse, I didn't have time to complete like half of the paper? Apparently I was racking my brains on some questions but come to think of it, I am not even assured of scoring for that few marks. Things aren't looking optimistic at all. JC could have been a wrong choice right from the start. I should just know my limitation and stick to the status quo. Seriously, I may have been more productive in polytechnic picking up some skills by now. Okay, so this is a time I should pray for a MIRACLE. Again.
Today after the exams, I went to meet huiyin at Bugis. Zixian and weiling was there too. I finally got to see them in person after such a long time. Chatted for a while till they left. Huiyin and I shopped around and caught up with each other. Then, we went to meet Sylvia and Dorothy. Partook our lunch at a hotpot restaurant. We certainly had a brilliant time! We then walked to Marina Bay. Stopped at Starbucks and chatted again. We sure had lots of stuff to chat about. I miss them. Their chattering and cackles of laughter, the times we had together. Then we went home.
My parents were kind of upset and distressed as I switched off my phone because of low battery life. I felt kind of apologetic because I could have at least made a call home before that since I will be returning home late. Had no idea they were that worried about me. So I resolved, not to make them be in such anguish and panic again. Hopefully, my results will not shock them.

2010-06-23T06:11:00.000-07:00

Phew!! What a vacation! Went to genting in the morning on Monday. My sisters and I had the annual pass so we need not worry about the long queues. Sat on several roller coasters!! Corkscrew was damn fun!! We had a whale of time(: I really love the weather there, so cooling and comfortable, unlike spore. I had a terrible stomachache on the first day so I went very early back to the hotel, watching tv and surfing the net. Thanks to my mum's meticulous care, I was up and well on the next day.
Went to old town for breakfast!! I just love the food there! Went to watch karate kid. Would say that 12 RM we paid for was rather worthwhile cause it's a fantastic show!! There were some touching parts where my sisters were crying throughout. Haha. Then we went bowling as well, during the happy hours, as recommended by Sarah. Spotlights were on and rock music was played. Very beautiful ambience. I sort of suck at bowling so I shall not elaborate further. It's embarassing. Haha.
Went to eat with my parents in the evening. After which, we went to the themepark to play!! Lesser people at night. Shopped around and bought supper back to hotel which comprises of dorayaki, marrybrown porridge and mcdonalds fries and nuggets!! Watched gossip girls and ate!! If only life can be like that everyday!!
Left genting today. Went to the MINES in KL. A very fine mall. Bought clothes, accessories and shoes!! Paradise!! Ate at Delifrance too!! (: And here I am back in s'pore! Home sweet home! Hais!! Still got lots of work to do!!

2010-06-17T09:43:00.000-07:00

I really felt a pang of guilt here. I actually lied to my parents. I misplaced their trust in me. For the first time, I really feel bad. I always had the urge to tell them. When I see my mum, I tried to tell her. But I can't. Something's really restricting me from doing it. But then again, if there's a will, there's got to be a way right? I am really disheartened now. What if that knot of anger just hardens into disappointment? It will take ages to heal the pain. For those few days, I did not have a clear conscience. Some day, I just have to spill the beans. Someday it shall be.

2010-06-11T00:22:00.000-07:00

Yay! Yesterday went to Johor. It was impromptu. Dressed to the nines and set off in the afternoon after fetching Tiffany from tuition. Went to have bak kut teh, saw dad's friend. Small world! Then we went to view houses. Dad bought a house in jb! Never thought that it was for real!! But that house is really spacious and peaceful. Dad said he wants to invest in it. Spent a long time in the showroom. Apparently, I was dozing off until they offered me some milo. Then, we went to Jusco! Sang karaoke and Red Dot! I got the membership card. Our time slot is 5pm till 10pm with buffet! Whoots! My sisters and I went in. My parents went ahead with their shopping. The karaoke was really so much better than spore's kbox! After 4 hours, we made payment and went to shop in Hariss bookstore. There were plenty of magazines!! Then after, we went home!! (:

2010-06-06T00:37:00.000-07:00

Hi! So yesterday I went out with my family again. Was so glad my dad passed his driving test. So he was the one behind the wheels. I really missed his driving. These three years passed by so fast. Many things happen in a brink of time. Time really flies~

Yesterday, Dad went off to work. Had lunch at home and he came to fetch us. Went to Harbourfront. Mum and Dad went to view apartments, apartments in JB to boot. Mum even said like that we can always shop at JB. I really don't know if its true. My sisters and I went to Mcdonalds to have some food. Went to shop around. Ended in Vivo again. It was like the 3rd time that I was there in this month. Went to National Geographic, skypark... My sisters and I got bored after a while. So much for shopping. Then, we went to meet our parents. Mum bought a really classy wallet. Dad bought a Samsung phone so I wonder who he will give his previous iphone to. Maybe my sisters? Haha, they just wish. The best part is, he got two tickets to Superjunior tomorrow at Marina Bay Sands! So my second sister and I will be going, today night! This is just so exciting! My first time to a concert! Although I don't really know about Superjunior. I merely know they sang Sorrysorry, that's all. How shallow. Haha. Anyway, was having a really bad flu. Luckily, Dad bought Panadol for me and I took it instantly. THen, we went to Bedok and had dinner!

Hope I will be well enough for today's show!

2010-06-02T07:06:00.000-07:00

I am so GLAD now! Went for medical check-up yesterday at NUH. There were quite a lot of people waiting to have their x-ray taken as well. So much for my appointment. Gosh, I really don't understand why I have to wear some big and shabby big clothing just to take my x-ray. Feel so uncomfortable. But its ok, all of them wore them too. So many of my cells died. Haha. When I went in to wait for consultation, I was really scared out of my wits. God know what the x-ray will show. The girl in front of me went in first, she came out talking about therapy and all that. That made me more tense. Thank goodness the doctor actually said my condition has stabilised! I was on cloud nine! All the panic was gone! Suddenly, I felt so lucky. The doctor even said I need not come for check-ups again!!! (: Ear appointment coming up, hope everything will go well.

2010-05-24T03:42:00.000-07:00

Went out with besties on Vesak Day. Met at Whitesands and had a hearty meal at KFC. They told me about their exciting poly life and stuff. Then, we went to Vivo City. Wanted to catch a movie but apparently there's like none. Either way, our choice of movie isn't the same. So oh well. Proceeded to Daiso to shop. After that, we went to Marina Square, Kbox!! Woohoo! Haven't sing for a long time! Dorothy and Sylvia went to Starbucks to get some coffee while Huiyin and I went to shop around. Wow, shopping is really a balm to my frazzled nerves. How tranquil! Dorothy's caramel cappucino was so nice! Pity it was kind of expensive, plus I'm like on a tight budget. So when time's up, we went to KBox. Needless to say, had a great time with the girls! Sang our hearts out! Never felt so good! Then, we went to walk to Marina Bay. Took some photos!! Then, we went to Mcdonalds to have supper! Had ice-cream too!

On Saturday, I went out with my family. Went to Bugis to have lunch. Mum went to the temple, Dad went to Singtel. My sisters and I went to Iluma. Ordered frozen yogurt, as recommended by Sarah. She went there once with her friends and she finds it refreshing! Considering the fact that I am not really into yogurt, it certainly satisfy my tastebuds. Chatted with them and shopped. Coincidentally, we saw Clifton with his friends! Haha! Guess he was there intending to watch a movie or something. Then, we went to eat laksa(because of Tiff's pestering) and I ordered my durian smoothie! Yum! Then after, we went to meet Mum and Dad at Bugis. Went to Vivo to shop around. After that, we went to Bukit Merah to eat teochew porridge!

Ok, so time to face reality. Health is wealth. This statement is so true. Here I am worrying about my upcoming medical checkup with my specialist. God knows about my condition. Hope scoliosis did not deteriorate. Hopefully, I don't need another surgery again. My condition has indeed caused a lot of hindrance to my mum. She's been worrying about posture and so on. It really have to be up to fate now. Next Tuesday will be that important day. Omg, I'm going to pray real hard now.

2010-05-17T05:22:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I went out with my relatives to meet at Liang's court. Went to a Thai restaurant to partake some delicacies.Buffet! Clifton seemed really emotional, or should i say unusually quiet? So it was a little awkward during lunch. Thank god i had my sisters. Haha. I ate loads of red ruby! That dessert is one of my favourite!

And so we munched on food and chit chat. Then, my aunt suggested to us to go to her house and we did. Wow! Turned out her apartment was quite spacious. June's room was a little messy though for a girl. She's even got a room just for play! Oh my! Haha. I bet if it was my mum, she couldn't even take it for one minute, considering the fact that she likes cleaniness. So then my father played mahjong with the others. Sarah, Tiff, Feline and I went to Bukit Panjang Plaza. Feline's dad drove us there. I went to the library to study the chemstry bonding notes. Apparently, I did not abosrb much. The library was not very quiet and conducive enough for my learning.

Then, I went to meet them and had ice-cream. When we went back to aunt's house, Mum and aunts were already back from Shengshiong and went to prepared dinner. Ok, so the dinner was kind of abrupt so I wouldn't say that that was the best meal I have eaten. Haha. After that, we went home(:

2010-05-02T22:07:00.001-07:00

On Saturday, I went out with the clique to Somerset. Met sylvia and dorothy first at whitesands. Boy, they were late. Suppose to spring huiyin with a surprise but we arrived later. Met with Joycelyn, Michelle, Jie ying and vivian. Went to a Japanese restaurant to have lunch. Yummy ramen!! Doro and I treated her for that meal. Then after we took some photos.

Dorothy and I tried to distract her into shopping and buying clothes while the rest of the girls went to get the cake. Shopped in forever 21, uniqlo etc etc. We each bought a shirt!! There goes my money! But oh well. We then walked along orchard road, went to ion orchard. Celebrated her birthday with a lovely cake with icings made by the girls themselves! Auw!! Isn't that sweet?! So then we chatted as well and catch up with each other. Was telling Dorothy about my jc life. Haha. Took random photos using sylvia's webcam. Boy, that was fun! Although there were like many unglam photos of me, we had a whale of a time!

Went home quite late. Thank goodness my parents were not back from their dinner. And I got home before they did or else I would have to hear a long stretch of nagging from my mum again. Watched tv with Sarah! And that's it! I gotta really catch up with geography , all the inselbergs and stuff. Omg! Why in the world did I pick geography as my subject combination? Bummer.

2010-04-25T05:39:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a balm to my frazzled nerves. Went to changi airport terminal 2 to meet my classmates for geography project.

Thought I was rather late, but turned out that half of them didn't turn up. Went to mcdonalds to discuss the contents of the geography project. Initially intended to have lunch at swensens, turned out that the discount was not valid. Bummer. Went to the staff canteen to eat instead. Did up mr chow's poster for his upcoming birthday.

Then, I went back to pasir ris to meet dorothy. Took a bus to kovan and mrt to dhoby ghaut. Met up with Sylvia, huiyin and zixian. Went to xinwang cafe to eat! There was delectable food! Yum! Love their milk tea! Simply refreshing! We chatted and laughed as we reminisced the times we had together..Dorothy kept saying that I was desperate. Dorothy, I am so not ok!! Took some photos! Then Sylvia was obviously hooked on arcade, as always, despite our words of advice. She was like addicted. So we went home really late. Mum gave me the silent treatment for that. Aha!

2010-04-10T22:20:00.000-07:00

How tiring... Just completed preliminary ideas for project work recently and yet it is not guaranteed a pass. There are possibilities of rejection. Haha. But anyway, was so glad my dad came home safely yesterday from hongkong. Went to changi airport terminal to fetch him. He bought 10 iPhone covers!!! All different colours and designs! Isn't that sweet!!(: He even bought a Prada bag for my mum!! Also, he bought a webcam and some wii games for tiff. And Hannah montana concert DVD for my sister, a fanatic of Hannah Montana. How cool! Then we went to have a lovely meal at kopitiam. OMG, even at airport , I see people mugging.

Feel like I have wasted my time away. I took the whole day just doing maths tutorial. Apparently, there were too much distractions at home like food, tv, computer and my iPhone as well.. Argh!! Difficult to place my focus on studies. Really takes some form of discipline to not succumb to the surrounding temptation.

I kept wasting loads of time on facebook and god knows what. Phew and yet there mounting time magazines for gp awaiting me. Apparently , I have received like five copies and I have merely read a synopsis of it. Not even the details. I so regretted buying those references, it's not like I will read it dilligently and I wished I had the time. Yeah right. So true. Haha. So then went home and watch down with love!!

2010-04-05T07:45:00.001-07:00

Ok, so maybe it was wrong to sort of shift all the blame to my parents for the fact that I am stuck in JC. They gave me a choice after all. I could have chosen other alternatives. Over the weekends, I almost resorted to appeal to transfer to polytechnic.

However, after much thought, I did not. I have to try. I may regret if I just throw in the cards like that. I would have felt indignant. Yes, I feel the tremendous stress engulfing me, but still. Stress is part of our lives. Something unavoidable and manageable. I guess I just wanna persevere till the very end. I should endure all the endeavours.

Phew. Come to think of it, if i had appeal to poly, I would be worrying about the first day of school. Butterflies in my stomach and stuff. Still have to worry about social networks and circle of friends.

Ok, so I have decided and hope its not something bad.

2010-04-01T19:43:00.000-07:00

Finally a time to breathe. Yesterday I was so happy when school ended. Wahaha. Went to Elias mall to meet Dorothy, she was having her vaccination. Auww! That must hurt!! Then we went to voideck of sylvia's house. Chatted as we waited for her to rush home. We played a game of badminton. Thank goodness I got my pe shirt. Had a whale of a time.. We were really so random. After that, we went to hk cafe at whitesands. Saw Chloe too!! We ordered some dishes- random mix. Haha. Anyway I love one of their signature dish, French toast. Damn delicious and filling!! Took some random photos too. All of us were unglam. Haha, all for one, one for all! We chatted a while. Went to buy doro's watch at city chain( I am not badmouthing you ok, doro? Haha) and we went to kopitiam to have a drink, random us again!! All the shops were like closed.. Haha, went home. Had a fun time yesterday!!(:

2010-03-28T00:02:00.000-07:00

Yesterday after lunch, went to Bugis with family. Mum wanted to go to the temple so the rest of us sat at a roadside stall and ate laksa and drank some refreshing fruit juice, marvelous!! Then, we proceeded to Suntec City. Walked around, went to Aston's Restaurant to eat some steak. Yum!! Had a boisterous meal. Then went to Carrefour to buy some groceries. And off we went to watch Down With LOve!

2010-03-26T23:34:00.000-07:00

Hey there! Yesterday, after school, I met huiyin at the west plaza bus-stop. Went back to Punggol Secondary to collect our testimonials. My mum had been harping on how important the document was.. So I went yesterday so I can stop hearing her nagging. It was really a disappointment that I got B4 for my cca. Hais. Also , I think the B grade for English on my o level results is so unglam. Haha. Speaking of English, its so unfair. Sarah got A1 without even flipping through any reference materials or anything. I cannot even achieve an A in my secondary school. Apparently, the testimonial's content was shorter than I expected. Then, we went back home. Wanted to meet Sarah for lunch or something but apparently, she was having CCA or something. So I just headed back home. I don't wanna wander around shopping centres again,haha. In the evening, I went with my family to Kallang to eat. Ate crab bee hoon, oysters, even french fries(random). Yum!! Had a hearty meal... Oh ya, I think I have to buck up for English, cause when I saw the forum on elearning, I realized my counterparts' language skills were superb. Very, in fact. Goodness, how did they do that?

2010-03-22T03:00:00.000-07:00

Hey there. So today school reopens. Seriously, I am so reluctant about getting back to school. I just can't really get used to the fast-paced jc life. Even though it's already a term, I still feel so weird. It's just I am really not used to it. In secondary school, I could fare well and have a chance to shine above my peers. It feels really great. But now??I will be satisfied and thank god if I even can pass a test. Is jc really not fit for me? I am just an average student from a neighbourhood school, who am I to compete with others? I should just know where I stand and my limitations. I feel so tired, always lagging behind my peers, trying to catch up. I feel so vexed, living up to my parents' mounting expectations. Why did I have such a successful family, clever sisters to boot? It's just so hard fitting into them. But I am trying, still hanging there, although barely making it.. Anyway, enough of the complaints from me, haha. So today there was this geography test, so unprepared. I am so dead. Oh well , should have known better. It's a jc, so unpredictable, really.

2010-03-19T02:01:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went to Changi Airport Terminal 2. Met Tsz Kin on the way, what a coincidence!! Went to meet the rest Went to Mcdonalds, took loads of photos. Then, went back with Natalie, took bus 27 to Compass Point to meet Sarah. We went all the way to Bugis. Was a little confused with the subway. Haha. But anyway we made it through after asking a security guard. Haha. Shopped around a while and met up with Dad. Went to soupspoon and drank some soup.(: Then after went to Whitesands to meet Mum and Ah T. Had dinner. Went home and watched drama with Sarah while Ah T used the computer. Haha...If only everyday can be like that, yeah... I just wish.

2010-03-17T03:29:00.000-07:00

So tired now although i have to confess that i didn't really do anything.
Rather, I watched loads of drama recently. Like a movie marathon. Haha.
Read the news. Seriously, i thought that what the protestors at Thailand did was really useless. They are taking so much of their blood just to convey a message across. That is, equal rights. Those blood can very well be put in better use, like donation for patients. I seriously don't know what came though their mind. Oh well. Glad spore isn't like that. If there is so much protest and unhappiness within the people, how can a country achieve political stability? Recently read Jack Neo's scandal. What a pity. One of the rare local successful people but to my dismay. Empathize with his wife. Its really sad. Seeing her so pale and all feeble at the press conference. There are many ups and downs in life, but life still has to go on...

2010-03-15T01:14:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a great day! Went with huiyin to meet doro and sylvia at kovan mrt station. We were really early birds. Not sure if that is good or not. But it sure is satisfying catching up with old friends and chat about all sorts of stuff. Then, we proceeded to Plaza Singapura. Bought movie tickets for Alice In The Wonderland at 2.05pm.Had lunch at Manhattan Fish Market. Well , i don't really eat fish, but since my besties wanna check it out, we went in anyway. Sylvia has the membership card. The ambience was kind of 'good', cause apparently the light was blinking all the way. Didn't really notice that till huiyin told me. Haha. Drank mocha, but i preferred the one i drank at Bishan library. So it was kind of disappointing. And we spend a hefty sum of money, discount didn't help that much either. But so. Then, we went into the cinema, the timing was just right. Still afraid that we would be late earlier. Anyway, i shall review that movie. Not bad, i must say. Kind of magical, imaginative and enchanting. Huiyin said it was a little scary, i don't think so though. Its so thrilling and adventurous and hilarious. Haha. But it is a fairytale that will never apply to real life. So time to face reality. Haha. After that, we accompanied sylvia to play arcade. Then,we took the train to Bugis. Went to PMK for the discount. Last day valid. Sylvia and i each bought a shirt. Then, went to Newbie. Dorthy and sylvia bought some clothes(: But prices were exorbitant, was broke. Then, sylvia and Doro went off, leaving me and huiyin. We went to the foodcourt in Whitesands to have dinner. Went home after that. It was a wonderful day. Just like a dream. However, i have to wake up and get back to the harsh reality.

2010-03-13T01:35:00.000-08:00

hey, so it must be weird cause i seem to be updating this blog recently. Haha. In actual fact i could have done more constructive things. What a holiday!! Dad asked if we were keen on a trip to genting this coming wednesday. Of course i said no, apparently i need time to catch up in my studies and Tiff have got PSLE. I can't believe i have to forgo a chance to go overseas to escape from spore's humid weather. Oh well. So tired now. Wnt toschool early in the morning for my last chemistry bridging module. Not sure if i should be glad or what. Did chemistry experiment today, started off 'blur'. Went to the wrong lab to boot, damn ambarrassing and i was late! Haha. Hope no one remember this. Did titration and preparing standard solution. Fortunately, i had rebecca and teacher's help. If not i will be in a trance. Haha.. Went home, cuddled on the souch and watched tv, read newspapers... Did some elearning. Seriously what kind of vacation is this?? Finally done with that!! But still got homework and tests to study for. Gosh, i really need to mug. Don't wanna get all miserable again. Aunt Faya and Uncle came, chatted a while with aunt. Chatted about the 'vibrant' life of junior college and how pe sucks. Oh ya, it does! Made me all tanned. Sports is so not me. We don't click, seriously. Sarah is sleeping now, how relaxed she is. Just came back from kl yesterday that's why. But i really have no idea how she can sleep for donkey ages.. Oh my! But i am meeting the girls tomorrow for a movie! So i guess that is something to look forward to, at least a balm to my frazzled nerves for now. Wanna buy a new bag and FBT shorts. Haha. Depends on my budget. Yawns* So tired but still have mounting work awaiting. Seriously, why did i do this to myself? I am torturing myself? Only have myself to blame for choosing ths path and not following my own wishes.

2010-03-12T05:10:00.000-08:00

I failed my chemistry test. 2.5/25. A very pathetic one.
A depressing mark indeed. What a bad beginning. Hope it doesn't go on like that.
I was thinking, is god trying to tell me somnething? That i cannot cope and should know my limitations? Should i just throw in the cards? I am really perplexed. Hope i will fare well in my upcoming tests.
I am just from a neighbourhood school, can i fare well like the rest?
How can i be on par with them. I am just an ordinary and average student who got into a jc by luck. Can i survuve the odds? Maybe i should stop deluding myself. Cream of the crop? Who am i kidding really?
If not for my parents, i will probably just throw in the towel and get into a poly.
I am trying , to live up to their expectations. I am yearning for a miracle. I need help. I have to admit it. I can't do this alone. I just hope that every cloud has its silver lining. Maybe i can make it through then.

2010-03-06T20:31:00.000-08:00

So i have been adjusting to jc life these few weeks.
Quite easily for there's only 11 of us in my class. 10s501.
Cool yeah. Whatever. So i am taking chem,geo,maths h2 and econs h1.
trying very hard to cope now.
At times, i feel like giving up but i just think of it as living up to my parents' expectations, so yeah.
I don't know if i can go that far.
So there was these few activities-CNY celebration, Reach Day.
Yesterday there was road race, at pasir ris park.
all tanned again. So tired.
Now struggling between geog and especially chem.
Oh weel, things will get better, i hope.

2010-01-29T02:45:00.000-08:00

yesterday was the first day of school.
was posted to Meridian Junior College.
Blatant to say, no one i know went to Meridian JC.
Kind of weird. Felt butterflies in stomach.
but i guess orientation will make us better.
The subject combination was kind of confusing.
Luckily my new friends and cousin helped me..
so i guess i will be very busy...

2010-01-21T19:39:00.000-08:00

wed- went out with besties.
met up with huiyin, dorothy and sylvia at whitesands.
We went to kopitiam to makan ..
Then after, we proceeded to bugis.
Dorothy went to register at NAFA.
How cool la!!! so envious.
But as much as i love music, i wouldnt want music as a career.
Maybe it is just an interest, but definitely nothing more to that.
Went to shop at Bugis street and Bugis Junction.
These places were like so packed though its just a bleak, drab week day.
Oh my, there were certainly hordes of shoppers.
I bet many of them are out to buy CNY clothes.
ok so, we all like spent a hefty sum of money on that.
And i weren't working for god's sake.
Oh gosh, things aren't cheap this days.
Who would have believed that s'pore just suffered from an economic downturn?
Hahas. Then, we went to Iluma.
Played at the arcade.
It was really exhilarating, extravaganza i would say.
but there were many cool and fascinating games vis a vis to many others.
Doro and I got really high, hahas....
After that, went to downtown- chalet.
Then, Sylvia and I went to eat at the foodcourt.
and that is it!
Home sweet home.

Yesterday i hung out with my primary school bestie, Rebecca.
Went to one of our favourite haunts, Cityhall.
Had a boisterous lunch at Just Acia.
There was a free flow of drinks and irrestible ice-cream.
Who can really resist that temptation? haha.
So we chatted over a whole afternoon..
catching up with each other.
Then we shopped at several outlets..
there were countless designs of clothes.
Demure, classic, sophisticated types...
But the prices are often not to my liking.
All beyond my tight budget.
So i just threw in the cards and accompanied Rebecca in her search for her clothes and accessories.
After that, went to Orchard , 313.
Went to shop in forever 21, she bought a native type of dress, looks ravishing on her though.
Then, after a long train journey back, we bidded farewell...
Oh gosh, my legs are really aching from the continuous shopping these few days.

2010-01-18T00:33:00.000-08:00

Hmm...
I was watching the news and was really taken aback when I found out that it was actually not the workers' responsibilities in fastfood restaurant to clear the customers' cutlery.
I am certain that most of our fellow singaporeans are unware as well.
So I was thinking, it could be that we are too unbothered and dependant on others.
As a result, it becomes a habit.
So people simply follow and the bulk of the country are doing the same.
It is really ironical that we need to have campaigns to remind people to be gracious.
Being gracious, is after all, an individual responsibility.
It is our own moral values.

The second piece of article was the incident that happened in sentosa.
Girl was being molested by some guys, and people have the cheek to do nothing and even stand there to watch to boot?
That is kind of absurd.
However, I do not really believe that out of many, no one did anything.
I believe there are still some modest kind souls out there. There may be some informing the authorities.
Whatever it is, it isn't fair that she should be violated just because of her sleazy attire.
Well, I am definitely so not amused with such news.
What would foreigners think of s'pore if they come across such happenings?
Its kind of embarassing, really.

The people of Haiti are suffering.
We can only emphatize with them but it is really hard to imagine what is really happening there.
The unpleasant period they have to undergo.
The wave of fear and spasm of agony.
It seemed horrendous.
I am so glad that many countries are lending a helping hand, be it funds, rescue team, emergency items. Every contribution counts.
Really hope more can help those innocent victims in need.
Such tragedy is so unpredictable at times.

2010-01-11T20:44:00.000-08:00

ok so i got back my o level results .
we got gold value-added results.
and 100% passes for english. How incredible!
Got better than i expected, considering the fact that the national exams are such a far cry from the prelim papers.
Really thankful to my teachers, especially mrs ow yong.
She helped me when i was sick during the written paper.
Knowing that i was disadvantaged, she helped me in my chinese aural.
She even offered her help by asking me to call her at nights to practise aural(:
I thought i could fare better though.
After the red-letter day, i have to worry and consider whether i should get into a jc or poly.
Well, many gave me a bad impression of jc, like the general paper is hard to tackle.
But if there's a will, there is sure to be a way right?
Mrs ow yong said if i wanna get into the dynamic world of business,
I might as welll get into a jc and enter university in the future.
After all, many successful people are university graduates.
Hais, but how about english?
I am not sure which is the ideal route for me.
I really hope what i choose in the end is the best for me.

Yesterday went to my maternal grandparents' house.
Its been a long time ever since i last went there.
As expected, my relatives inquired on my well-being and what I am up to recently.
They all know that the significant day was tomorrow.
I was feeling so anxious and Clifton has to keep reminding and teasing me.
Telling me about doomsday and all crap. haha. Whatever. Wait till its his turn.
Brought laptop there, so apparently he did too, so we were like playing all the way.
Then went to the park, unfortunately it was under renovation so we went to the nearby condominium instead. Played badminton and chatted.
Then, we strolled back to my grandparents' house.
Had dinner, there was a fine spread of food.
then, went back home..
watched sonny with a chance..

2010-01-07T00:26:00.000-08:00

yo! yesterday went with friends to the park for picnic.
had a whale of a time.
there was a spread of food.
so fun, got rashes and sunburn though.
argh....so itchy...!!
Anyway, 4 more days and it will be the red-letter day!
I will soon come to terms with my 'o' level results!
so nervous...goodness...
time to face reality.

2010-01-01T06:18:00.000-08:00

On wednesday, went to meet Huiyin, Dorothy and Priscilla at pasir ris park when dawn breaks. Turned out that i was the first to reach. Oh well.
HY had a tummyache and doro overslept.
Poor Pris was waiting at interchange for them to bring her to the park.
By the time they arrived, it was already about ten so we walked to downtown east.
Priscilla and Dorothy went to catch a movie. Avatar.
We went to meet Xinwei, Michelle, Jie Ying, Jocelyn and Vivian at Kbox.
We sang our hearts out.
By the way, I think that Xinwei and Jie ying sang very well.
So after that, we strolled to whitesands, played arcade.
Soon after, priscilla ,HY , Doro and i proceeded to changi airport terminal 3.
thanks to dorothy random idea. haha.
so we shopped at several shops.the prices are exorbitant though.
then, went to whitesands to borrow some books, buy dinner and went home.

Yesterday, my family and i went to bukit merah to eat lunch again,
bought some durians back.
In the evening, went to cousin's house for countdown.
so i didnt go to the park for picnic with friends. pity though.
there was a spread of food despite the last minute party.
spring roll, bee hoon, duck and longan...
then we played games like Life! , UNO spin
was pretty enjoyable.
so we watched the countdown show as well.
Happy new year!
and by the way, Happy Birthday Xinwei! (:

Today is new year!.
finally 2009 is over, it was a pretty unlucky year for me.
am i glad, all were over.
so this are my new year resolutions:
-be a better daughter
- more achievements
new year wish:
- pink of health
-and a better year ahead
Simple as that.
so today went with family to Raffles Town Club, so didnt manage to go to XW's party.
had high tea buffet. was really classy, the ambience and all that matters.
there was even a pianist playing the piano honing her technical skills with a wide range of melodies.
so expressive. i wonder when i will be able to play such refined music. probably never.
so we sat, chatted a while, partook of fine delicacies like dim sum, fondue, plenty of desserts like chocolate eclairs, durian puff, logcake etc etc...
especially love laksa and crayfish.(:
it isnt often that i get to eat such delightful meals.
was in seventh heaven!
sat there for ages, well i suppose that is why its called high tea.
then ,we went to liang's court.
my sisters and i went to partyworld ktv.
rather costly though.
sang multple songs.
then after, went to have dinner.
hainanese curry rice. sweet!

us at raffles town club

2009-12-28T23:08:00.000-08:00

Went out with huiyin to Orchard Road yesterday.
setted off at about 2pm.
long journey in the train.
our destination was shaw house.
tried to walk through the underway but to no avail.
so perplexed by the stretch of passageways and mounting number of people.
ended up going in rounds
fortunately, our persistence and efforts paid off
finally made our way there.
we were intending to find dorothy at work.
found her at Isetan. promoting coffee machine.
she is really working long hours.
so then, we accompanied her during her break.
were really chatty.
so after, huiyin and i went to shop around the long stretch of Orchard.
went to Ion Orchard, Wheellock Place and Tangs Plaza.
our legs were really putting us to test.
so we went to Whitesands.
She accompanied me while i had my dinner.
what a good Samaritan!
hahas, she bought some doughnuts for her family and we went home(:

2009-12-27T07:10:00.000-08:00

hey there!
have been blogging more often lately!
so today went to Bukit Merah with my family.
had teochew porridge for lunch.
one of my favourite delights(:
there was something weird, we saw a chicken under a car.
so hilarious. is it a hen laying eggs or something?
ok then, we were clueless on where to go next.
so luckily my dad came up with an idea to vivo.
oh well. so we went shopping. and guess what?
bought nothing. hahas. we were like walking aimlessly anyway.
so then, we went to changi airport terminal 3.
i know, so random....
but well, when you are just feeling that life is monotonous and drab, something crazy just jolts you. ok, like a nutcase.
bumped into one of dad's friend and they chatted. went on and on... yawns*
why do adults talk so much?
so after walking rounds in the airport, we decided to go to foodcourt to makan.
oh ya, so went home and watch Spore idol and cadet kelly.
by the way, Sezairi won! and i think that is totally awesome.
My heart totally melted when i saw his performance, Touched by an Angel penned by one of the judges Ken Lim.
His singing was baritone, touching and fabulous!
Sylvia Ratonel was not bad either, i mean, she look so great and her voice is sweet(:
ok, so that is all , at least for now!
going out with huiyin tomorrow!

2009-12-26T20:33:00.000-08:00

Friday was Christmas Day.
To me, i perceive christmas as a joyous season where everyone gather to be with their loved ones.- families and friends.
It is a time to forgive and forget.
It is like a reunion. Its all about sharing and most importantly having fun.
We should cherish the people around us.
We should believe in god and thank him for everything.
Ok, this is just my perspective.
so on friday, my parents, Sarah and I went to Raffles Town Club to beguile our palette.
went to Bugis as well, there were still loads of shoppers.
then after we went to Pasir Ris fish farm.. many amazing sightings...even an area for fishing.
ok, fishing is so not me. hahas.
Then, we went to fetch tiffany(she had went to a christmas party)
went to have dinner in a western restaurant at Pasir Ris Park.
chatted under the moonlight. hahas...sounds romantic eh?
love the ambience there, the song, lighting and all...what a comfort.
after which we went home and watched some movies.(:

so yesterday went to City Square Mall to have lunch at the foodcourt.
there were more shops opened this time round.
shopped in Metro.
after which went to OG again, Mum insisted that there were discounts and promotions cause of post christmas sales.
i bet she had the time of her life while we were finding a place to rest and sip some drink.
played games on my dad's iphone while waiting for my shopaholic mum.
then, we went to suntec city.
had dinner in a restaurant.
steamboat buffet(:
each one a hotpot. hygienic and convenient.
ate turkey, ham and logcake as well...
love especially their desserts. cakes and durian puffs.
oh my god, have a sweet tooth(:
so when we were like bloated, made our way out...
felt like barfing though, i guess i ate too much. quite a considerable amount.
then, we went to toy r us to purchase tiff's magic set- xmas present.
hahas... and went home to watch momo love...

sarah and my 'hotpot'

lovely desserts(:

logcake

2009-12-21T22:36:00.000-08:00

yesterday went out with HuiYin, Sylvia, Sabrina, Jocelyn, XinWei, Michelle, Vivian, Zi Xian and Grace to vivo city.
went to long john silvers to have lunch.
after which we went to shop... ...
took loads of photos.
really had a whale of time.
exchanged presents by playing games.
so after, sab, syl, HY and i went to marina square, had ice-cream while we watched syl play arcade.
there goes the money...
so then, huiyin and i went to whitesands.
bought dinner and went home together.(:

gifts.

the whites , hahas...

girlfriends(:

2009-12-18T19:41:00.000-08:00

Time flies.
initially i was like rotting at home, finding something crazy to do everytime.
like spontaneous.
Is as though everything was like yesterday.
toiling day and night for the national exams.
plain thinking about it gives me the jitters.
Hais, wonder how i fare in these exams.
How i wish my results will be as remarkable as my prelim results.
I reminisced years ago when i got my psle results,
it was a red-letter day. I was really disappointed..
I don't wanna feel that tinge of regret.
my disappointment hardened into a knot of anger as i blamed myself for not working hard enough, didnt get to the school that my heart desired.
So this time, i really yearn for a miracle.

Some things just cant be undone.

2009-12-17T01:39:00.001-08:00

ok so i have nothing much to do now.
why does it seems like many of my peers are starting to work?
even my bestie is going for interviews.
wish her luck though.
so is it a good idea to work during the vacation?
very good question.
i have mixed feelings about it.
it is true that we all have to go out to the society to work someday,
so experiencing it and spending time like that now is good.
but somehow, i was thinking like from another perspective.
since we all have to work one day,
why torture ourselves and get carried away with work?
ok maybe working isn't that terrifying, just exaggerating it a little.
the truth is, i don't think i am ready to move on. or am i?
time is always going on so quickly.
can't i just study for the rest of my life?
now that's a little ludicrous
but i don't have to earn some money because my peers do right?
i mean since its a vacation, we might as well let down our hair.
ok that is just in my point of view.
goodness, that seems like a debate.
feeling much better already.

2009-12-16T20:51:00.000-08:00

yesterday was a slight balm to my drab week.
Huiyin, Dorothy, Vivian, Sarah and I went to the Singapore Zoo,
the price was a little exorbitant though.
i know it may sounds like a ludicrous idea, but still, how bad can it be?
it beats staying home all the time!
so we went on the public transport, the journey was like very long frankly,
two hours plus i guess. but it is all worthwhile.
so we went to see the different animals in their enclosures.
we setted off early so i guess we saw every nook and cranny that is there.
the last time i went there was two years ago with my paternal cousins.
that place hadnt really changed much since, except for some christmas ornaments here and there.
however, it may be me, but
well, don't get me wrong , there was a diverse variety of animals
but i think that the quantity of animals has diminished compared to the last time we came.
i am really a little dismayed to know that there are many endangered animals due to human activities like poaching.
well , i am seriously not a person who adore animals, but i find this creatures amazing.
the service in the zoo was applaudable i must say.(:
we went to KFC to have a boisterous lunch. that was the only fastfood outlet.
thank god it was raining slightly when we were indoors.
we promptly made our way to the exit.
Sarah and I then went to Tampines to do some shopping.
bought some earrings as our hearts' desire.
after which, our parents called to tell us to settle our own dinner, went to the foodcourt in whitesands to have a chatty dinner.(:

vivian, dorothy, huiyin, me and sarah. (:

2009-12-06T23:38:00.000-08:00

yo! I am finally back in spore!
ok not technically, but now i am on the road, my dad is driving.
on the way back home.
the road is a little bumpy so maybe there will be some spelling errors
went to genting again last thursday.
this time i went with my paternal relatives.
it was much more fun.
went to bowl with them.
madeline kept getting strikes! hahas.
even my little cousin Brian played too,
well at least some pins were knocked down.
went to the themepark as well.(:
even tried going at night but it was just so cold, we were like trembling all the way...
Darren was terrified, guess he was afraid of heights.
i am glad he did try though..
Brian took part in a colouring contest readily as soon as he heard the announcement.
he look so serious and cute while participating!
now i know why people say you look good when focusing at work(:
well , he didnt win but im proud of him
its a pity we didnt try corkscrew, the thrilling ride.
there were always technical maintenance.
nevertheless, i had the time of my life!
the nights were spent in Brian's room.
played games- Murderer etc...
damn hyper..
we went to catch a movie- Christmas Carol as well.
also went to ktv.
sang our hearts out.
had the time of my life!(:
sunday was my parents wedding anniversary(:
gave them a gift and a fabulous powerpoint.
we really caught them by surprise.
apparently they assumed we had forgotten.
went to Kuala Lumpur.
went to shop in Sungei Wang and BB plaza.
stayed in royal hotel.
i swear it is terific and classy!
did loads of shopping, my mum's fave.
bought some fashionable clothings and dvds as well.
ok, going to cross the checkpoint now.